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I believe I've hit my wall. THE wall.
Overcome with about 43058034808989 different emotions right now.
And what's worse, I have absolutely no idea how to feel.
I have so much going through my head that I have absolutely no control over it and have no idea how to make this anxious feeling go away.
I know I've felt this way before, but this is something completely different. These things going through my head are life situations. Lately, I've been talking with people about what I'm doing with my life and where I'm headed, and today just was a culmination of it all. I can't take it anymore. It's so hard to know where I'm going to be or where I'm going to end up in 5, 10, 15, 20 years. I know people just want to know but it really bugs me when people ask because I feel like I'm on the spot, and I feel like everytime someone asks me, I have the same answer and nothing has changed. I NEED A CHANGE. A very big change.
A lot has happened the past couple of weeks, both socially and professionally. Also, the fact that my house that I've lived in for the past 23 years will be on the market in the next few weeks adds a great deal to the overwhelming stress and anxiety. It all came at once. Maybe that's why I feel the way I do. I just feel so stuck and overwhelmed with everything. I know this isn't going to change anytime soon, and I have to learn to deal with it, but I gotta be honest, it's friggin' hard. It's probably some of the hardest decisions I'll ever have to make.
Pretty much, there is just way too much going on right now and I have absolutely no idea how to deal with it. I mean, I'm sure i'll be ok soon, but as for now, I'm completely freaking out.
As much as I know there is no easy solution, right now, I desperately wish there was.
Overcome with about 43058034808989 different emotions right now.
And what's worse, I have absolutely no idea how to feel.
I have so much going through my head that I have absolutely no control over it and have no idea how to make this anxious feeling go away.
I know I've felt this way before, but this is something completely different. These things going through my head are life situations. Lately, I've been talking with people about what I'm doing with my life and where I'm headed, and today just was a culmination of it all. I can't take it anymore. It's so hard to know where I'm going to be or where I'm going to end up in 5, 10, 15, 20 years. I know people just want to know but it really bugs me when people ask because I feel like I'm on the spot, and I feel like everytime someone asks me, I have the same answer and nothing has changed. I NEED A CHANGE. A very big change.
A lot has happened the past couple of weeks, both socially and professionally. Also, the fact that my house that I've lived in for the past 23 years will be on the market in the next few weeks adds a great deal to the overwhelming stress and anxiety. It all came at once. Maybe that's why I feel the way I do. I just feel so stuck and overwhelmed with everything. I know this isn't going to change anytime soon, and I have to learn to deal with it, but I gotta be honest, it's friggin' hard. It's probably some of the hardest decisions I'll ever have to make.
Pretty much, there is just way too much going on right now and I have absolutely no idea how to deal with it. I mean, I'm sure i'll be ok soon, but as for now, I'm completely freaking out.
As much as I know there is no easy solution, right now, I desperately wish there was.