she's back, BITCHZ!
so yes...once again, and quite sadly might i add, my livejournal addiction has become secondary to myspace...oh i hate myself for just typing that. but seeing as how i still have a special place in my heart for the young lj...i will give all my dedicated readers (all three of them) a little update on the state of my life right now...in the form of a list:
1. i seem to have found true love...i mean it. true. the most real and incredible thing i have ever felt in my life. for once i am able to look at my future with hope instead of the fear and anxiety and general ennui which has been so prevalent in my life up to this point...i could go on, but honestly words fail to describe what i feel...just know that it is goooood.
2. avant grande art show vol. 2 is coming up next month...all of a sudden i seem to have found myself flooded with offers and commissions and there are only a couple that i actually want to complete. this art show being one of them. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that the watercolor i'm working on will turn out alright and that both of my submissions will be accepted. that alone will be enough to satisfy me. if i get them into the art show and have offers made to me to sell them, it will be merely icing on the cake. i'll update with further info on the show itself in case any of my loyal fans wish to attend...two words: open bar.
3. i am still slangin beans at the young starbucks...its going alright, there are a few tweaks i would like to see made in the day to day workings of our store..but i finally got my promotion and hopefully that will start flowing soon, and i'll be able to get my black apron and have the prestigious title of 'coffee master'...has a nice ring to it dont you think? i've been kindof wrangled into doing alot of art-related side projects for our store which i have neither the time or constitution to complete, but if it makes me look good to the management then....
4. on a not-so-positive note, this past week i had a huge, juvenile, and dramatic falling out with one of my best friends, matt...thinking about it makes me really sad, but the way it all went down almost completely eradicates any feelings of sadness replacing them with feelings of incredulity and annoyance. we were growing apart and had different goals and priorities in our lives. that is hard to realize and even harder to accept and act upon..its upsetting to know that acting upon it in what i thought was a decently mature manner backfired so dramatically. but, i mean, fo'real, it was COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY for him to drag his mentally imbalanced roommate into it to sling immature verbal abuse and empty threats my way...by doing that he totally blew any chance of reconciliation or any sort of amicable parting. sad, but c'est la vie, eh? (btw, that was french canadian)
5. japanda boy car (the roadbug obliterator) desperately needs an oil change..i'm hoping i'll be able to afford it within the next two weeks before my poor young japanda decides on a plan of vehicular retaliation.
6. i have made the transition back to clove cigarettes...joan, i'm sure you remember this. camel and lucky strikes are still tied at a close second...but as for now, consider me converted.
and that, mi amigos, is the current status of my life. i'm sure all of you were biting your nails in anxious anticipation to hear whether or not i had fallen off...i did for awhile there...all these sad, one-liner entries...expect those no more! i'm not saying that my life has all of a sudden become void of all problems or concerns, but for once i am able to look at them straight on, and have the will to fight for what i knew was good and right all along. and with that, i will leave you with a top ten list:
planning the attack over:
1. still being broke
2. shit at work not going down like it should
3. stupid japanime nerds who think that they're cats (joan, you are excluded from this. no offense)
4. stupid samsung phone
5. pms
6. stupid stuff that i need to do but dont have the money to wast on (i.e. japanda's oil change)
7. when you eat ice cream and it hits your teeth and blinding pain ensues
8. when you have a specific word in mind, and cant think of it
9. how none of my pants (especially my work pants) seem to fit me anymore, i'm sick of my ass crack always showing
10. the demise of my digital camera
planning the celebration for:
1. jeremy, who unknowingly saved me from a life of melancholy and desolation
2. the approaching art show
3. waking up to a young latte, a donut, and a beautiful face
4. finally getting shift at the young starbucks
5. my new phone (samsung piece of shit) btw, my new digits are 847-775-9462, holler!
6. my lack of tolerance for stupidity, drama, and bullshit
7. slowly gaining a better relationship with my sister
8. having someone who believes in me, keeps me on my toes, and pushes me in the right direction
9. the new beck cd
10. stickers!
aiight kids, i'm out like a trout! peace!
1. i seem to have found true love...i mean it. true. the most real and incredible thing i have ever felt in my life. for once i am able to look at my future with hope instead of the fear and anxiety and general ennui which has been so prevalent in my life up to this point...i could go on, but honestly words fail to describe what i feel...just know that it is goooood.
2. avant grande art show vol. 2 is coming up next month...all of a sudden i seem to have found myself flooded with offers and commissions and there are only a couple that i actually want to complete. this art show being one of them. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that the watercolor i'm working on will turn out alright and that both of my submissions will be accepted. that alone will be enough to satisfy me. if i get them into the art show and have offers made to me to sell them, it will be merely icing on the cake. i'll update with further info on the show itself in case any of my loyal fans wish to attend...two words: open bar.
3. i am still slangin beans at the young starbucks...its going alright, there are a few tweaks i would like to see made in the day to day workings of our store..but i finally got my promotion and hopefully that will start flowing soon, and i'll be able to get my black apron and have the prestigious title of 'coffee master'...has a nice ring to it dont you think? i've been kindof wrangled into doing alot of art-related side projects for our store which i have neither the time or constitution to complete, but if it makes me look good to the management then....
4. on a not-so-positive note, this past week i had a huge, juvenile, and dramatic falling out with one of my best friends, matt...thinking about it makes me really sad, but the way it all went down almost completely eradicates any feelings of sadness replacing them with feelings of incredulity and annoyance. we were growing apart and had different goals and priorities in our lives. that is hard to realize and even harder to accept and act upon..its upsetting to know that acting upon it in what i thought was a decently mature manner backfired so dramatically. but, i mean, fo'real, it was COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY for him to drag his mentally imbalanced roommate into it to sling immature verbal abuse and empty threats my way...by doing that he totally blew any chance of reconciliation or any sort of amicable parting. sad, but c'est la vie, eh? (btw, that was french canadian)
5. japanda boy car (the roadbug obliterator) desperately needs an oil change..i'm hoping i'll be able to afford it within the next two weeks before my poor young japanda decides on a plan of vehicular retaliation.
6. i have made the transition back to clove cigarettes...joan, i'm sure you remember this. camel and lucky strikes are still tied at a close second...but as for now, consider me converted.
and that, mi amigos, is the current status of my life. i'm sure all of you were biting your nails in anxious anticipation to hear whether or not i had fallen off...i did for awhile there...all these sad, one-liner entries...expect those no more! i'm not saying that my life has all of a sudden become void of all problems or concerns, but for once i am able to look at them straight on, and have the will to fight for what i knew was good and right all along. and with that, i will leave you with a top ten list:
planning the attack over:
1. still being broke
2. shit at work not going down like it should
3. stupid japanime nerds who think that they're cats (joan, you are excluded from this. no offense)
4. stupid samsung phone
5. pms
6. stupid stuff that i need to do but dont have the money to wast on (i.e. japanda's oil change)
7. when you eat ice cream and it hits your teeth and blinding pain ensues
8. when you have a specific word in mind, and cant think of it
9. how none of my pants (especially my work pants) seem to fit me anymore, i'm sick of my ass crack always showing
10. the demise of my digital camera
planning the celebration for:
1. jeremy, who unknowingly saved me from a life of melancholy and desolation
2. the approaching art show
3. waking up to a young latte, a donut, and a beautiful face
4. finally getting shift at the young starbucks
5. my new phone (samsung piece of shit) btw, my new digits are 847-775-9462, holler!
6. my lack of tolerance for stupidity, drama, and bullshit
7. slowly gaining a better relationship with my sister
8. having someone who believes in me, keeps me on my toes, and pushes me in the right direction
9. the new beck cd
10. stickers!
aiight kids, i'm out like a trout! peace!