strange feeling
omg,
i hate this feeling. its in the pit of my stomach. it sits there like a 40lb rock in my body. the pain.....the realization. i miss everyone so much that it hurts me. my time here has grown from a vacation to a permanent move. dont get me wrong, i love my sd friends,but there is no replacement for my CC homies. it makes me feel so weird, strange if you will. i am kinda shakey on this fine Wednesday evening, i dunno if it has to do with the AC being on or missing you all. my roommate left for the weekend and i sit here alone in my dorm room. i just talked to thea, someone who i know and love to death, but dont really keep in touch with, just talking to her and how she and i talked like we are sisters or something made me miss her so bad,and that led me to think of all the people that i missed and it turned out to be everyone.
just got off the phone with old co-workers, who knew that i could miss a place where i once scrubbed bathrooom walls. i miss Smart and Final and all my working bees there.
i wish that i had more time in life, more time to go home and see everyone. i wish that my writing class didnt suck so much cock and that it didnt give me a 5 page essay to do, and moreso, i wish that i would stop thinking of how i missed everyone so that i could actually focus and do that shit.
all for now,
peace
i hate this feeling. its in the pit of my stomach. it sits there like a 40lb rock in my body. the pain.....the realization. i miss everyone so much that it hurts me. my time here has grown from a vacation to a permanent move. dont get me wrong, i love my sd friends,but there is no replacement for my CC homies. it makes me feel so weird, strange if you will. i am kinda shakey on this fine Wednesday evening, i dunno if it has to do with the AC being on or missing you all. my roommate left for the weekend and i sit here alone in my dorm room. i just talked to thea, someone who i know and love to death, but dont really keep in touch with, just talking to her and how she and i talked like we are sisters or something made me miss her so bad,and that led me to think of all the people that i missed and it turned out to be everyone.
just got off the phone with old co-workers, who knew that i could miss a place where i once scrubbed bathrooom walls. i miss Smart and Final and all my working bees there.
i wish that i had more time in life, more time to go home and see everyone. i wish that my writing class didnt suck so much cock and that it didnt give me a 5 page essay to do, and moreso, i wish that i would stop thinking of how i missed everyone so that i could actually focus and do that shit.
all for now,
peace