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monday night was the scarest night of my life. i had just gotten out of the shower cuz i was super pissed at my mom and that's the way i clam down(plus i hadn't taken a shower since the day before lol!) ne who so i heard some sniffling....so i followed the sound....i walked into my mom's bathroom and she was sitting there in the dark crying. and i was like "mom what's wrong" she said "nothing" and i was like "mom please tell me" as i was like hugging her to give her comfort...(notice how i suddenly forgave her! lol) and so she said "michael(our oldest cousin) was missing" and i just broke down into tears. my face was the reddest i've ever seen it. the tears were rolling down my cheeks and chin and i just couldn't stop. then my mom finally pulled herself together and walked out. i just sat there...in the dark just thinking and crying and praying. mike and i never really had a great realtionship we hardly talked we never played when we were little...so everytime i saw him it was hey how's it going and that was it. and at that moment i learned just how much i care about him. i have no idea that i loved mike that much!
so i sat there in the bathroom for a about 30 to 40 min just crying and hoping he was ok. then my mom called her boyfriend and i listened. her 1st words were "honey something really bad happened" and i started to cry a little bit harder....then her next words were the exactlly what i was thinking but really didn't wanna here. "what if he's dead?" and i just blew up and started crying harder then ever. omg it hurt!
after that...i wouldn't eat.....i wasn't hungry......i just kept thinking what if he is dead.....and i never got to tell him how much i loved him. for all the 14 years of my life i never sat down a talked to him...just him. i kept thinking....what if i never get the chance to tell him all the things i wanted to tell him.i was feeling so many different things all at once. anger,sadness,scared......undicribable feelings.
thankfully that night aunt mary called us back and said that she had heard from mike that day......that lifted a lot of weight off my shoulders. i'm still scared for my cousin....because of all the things he's gotten into and had to face. i'm just hoping that he sees the pain he put us all through and realizes that maybe this time he really will change.
u guys don't be like me and never talk to someone u love dearly. because i'm telling u....it hurts when something like this happens and u start to regret never spending time with them.
i love u all!
xoxo
-nick
so i sat there in the bathroom for a about 30 to 40 min just crying and hoping he was ok. then my mom called her boyfriend and i listened. her 1st words were "honey something really bad happened" and i started to cry a little bit harder....then her next words were the exactlly what i was thinking but really didn't wanna here. "what if he's dead?" and i just blew up and started crying harder then ever. omg it hurt!
after that...i wouldn't eat.....i wasn't hungry......i just kept thinking what if he is dead.....and i never got to tell him how much i loved him. for all the 14 years of my life i never sat down a talked to him...just him. i kept thinking....what if i never get the chance to tell him all the things i wanted to tell him.i was feeling so many different things all at once. anger,sadness,scared......undicribable feelings.
thankfully that night aunt mary called us back and said that she had heard from mike that day......that lifted a lot of weight off my shoulders. i'm still scared for my cousin....because of all the things he's gotten into and had to face. i'm just hoping that he sees the pain he put us all through and realizes that maybe this time he really will change.
u guys don't be like me and never talk to someone u love dearly. because i'm telling u....it hurts when something like this happens and u start to regret never spending time with them.
i love u all!
xoxo
-nick