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[grandthftautumn]

I'm graduating high school tomorrow and it's amazing how little I care. it's actually really sad. I don't like how I can't seem to get excited about things much anymore. but these past few weeks have been good. the absence of school-related stress is boosting my mood. I love my job and the people I work with. I'm spending too much money, but already have a good amount in the bank for the first time since maybe my eighth grade job at Ingaldsby. way too many hangovers lately, but so much fun. I'm tired of overanalyzing things and I'm tired of any drama and I'm sick of certain friends who seem to care on and off or just not at all. I'm tired of working myself up over things that I can do absolutely nothing about and I'm guilty about neglecting my family. I need to learn how to entertain myself by myself and not always need to be around other people. I used to enjoy being alone. now I can't stand to be alone for very long without getting bored. I guess it doesn't bother me too much because I'd much rather be with friends anyways. but regardless, things have been pretty good lately, and hopefully this summer will be equally good.

today:

-Josh cracking his head open in the driveway from a biking accident
-ambulance, trip to the emergency room
-plastic surgeons and whatnot
-awards ceremony
+took soo many pictures with my new Polaroid camera
+the Mystery Science Theater 3000 inspired "I Like Pie" photo
+SuperWalMart!
+captioned all Polaroids at Stacheys
+The Talking Heads with Andy and Paige in the car
+the discovery of the Dating On Demand network on Jacqui's TV
+Devin's mixed cd with Oh Brother Where Art Thou tracks

I need sleep.