First post in a long time...
Yes, I know, first post in a long time. I just never felt the need to use Livejournal. Blogs and shit like this seem to always cause a whole bunch of uneccessary bullshit for a lot of people. Even some who don't even have a blog. It's fucking ignorant. But anyways, I've been doing pretty good. Working full time still at Weschler, due for a raise any time now. Actually, past-due, but we won't get in to that. August 29th is my first day of college. I can't wait to start school again. I feel so ignorant after being out of it for so long. But this past year has flown by. There've been good times, ugly times, sad times, happy times. You know, the usual shit that happens throughout the course of an entire year. There's just some things I look back on and wish I had never chosen to do. But holding on to the past is pointless and a waste of the precious amount of time we have. I'm glad that those things are over, though, and I will be sure to never make any of those mistakes ever again.
I'm really glad that I'm going to college. I feel as if my life is actually starting now. Almost like a new beginning. But then again, anything that you do should be new. Nothing should ever feel like deja vu for you. Because nothing is ever the same twice. I meditate a lot now and I really love it. I feel very centered, much calmer, and I can much more easily step outside of myself or a situation and see it from all angles. The mind is such a powerful tool. And I love learning how to use mine. I think it's a thirst I will never quench. It also helps to let go a all the things that don't matter. I've learned not to thrive and dwell on the past. To be in the moment. Right here. Right now. And it's a great way to be. I would highly reccomend it for anyone that has ever had even the slightest thought about meditation. It's very good. But there's some things I need to stop doing before I can just BE. If I'm wanting to attain mind and body as one, I need to stop poisoning my body, hence poisoning my mind. So many things can hinder you from what you want to achieve. I'm slowly learning how to let them go and realize that they don't matter.
Well, I have nothing else to say. If anyone ever wants to talk to me, IM me. Screen name on AIM is MirroredMalice and for Yahoo! it's Grandpastyle13@yahoo.com
"Call it aftermath
She's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath
She's turning blue
Why don't I just sit and stare at you?
Because I don't want to know.
I just didn't want to know."
I'm really glad that I'm going to college. I feel as if my life is actually starting now. Almost like a new beginning. But then again, anything that you do should be new. Nothing should ever feel like deja vu for you. Because nothing is ever the same twice. I meditate a lot now and I really love it. I feel very centered, much calmer, and I can much more easily step outside of myself or a situation and see it from all angles. The mind is such a powerful tool. And I love learning how to use mine. I think it's a thirst I will never quench. It also helps to let go a all the things that don't matter. I've learned not to thrive and dwell on the past. To be in the moment. Right here. Right now. And it's a great way to be. I would highly reccomend it for anyone that has ever had even the slightest thought about meditation. It's very good. But there's some things I need to stop doing before I can just BE. If I'm wanting to attain mind and body as one, I need to stop poisoning my body, hence poisoning my mind. So many things can hinder you from what you want to achieve. I'm slowly learning how to let them go and realize that they don't matter.
Well, I have nothing else to say. If anyone ever wants to talk to me, IM me. Screen name on AIM is MirroredMalice and for Yahoo! it's Grandpastyle13@yahoo.com
"Call it aftermath
She's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath
She's turning blue
Why don't I just sit and stare at you?
Because I don't want to know.
I just didn't want to know."