A moment of weakness
Last night was a horrible night. I couldn't breath, I was panicing, I was losing it. I wrote an entry here that I'm not proud of. In all my anger and fanatasism, I over exaturaded on many things. But because of my state, my writings were pure emotion and no logic. Yes she kissed someone, but she was kissed by someone. At the dance yes she danced with someone, but it was only dancing. I guess with the distance of our relationship got to me then. I am not proud of that, I know I'm a better person than that. I've decided that love is too complicated to understand. Plus, since my mind always goes to the worst case senirio, our love never had a chance. I'll be one to admit I'm not mentaly strong enough to hold a relationship. I made it seem that she never loved me, and I know that wasn't the case. I drove the one person who really loved me away with my pessamism. I wish I could be someone else. I wish I would have had more confidence. But as they say, the world waits for no one. The world will keep spinning weither someone loves me or not. I just wish I wouldn't have helped tear our love apart.
I want to thank the people who have tried to hele me throughout the years. They never stopped carring no matter what. Through all this, I've learned no matter how lonely I get, or how down I am, I will always have people who care about me. It's time for me to stop being so selfish and start embrassing the people I have, instead of longing for the people I don't.
I want to thank the people who have tried to hele me throughout the years. They never stopped carring no matter what. Through all this, I've learned no matter how lonely I get, or how down I am, I will always have people who care about me. It's time for me to stop being so selfish and start embrassing the people I have, instead of longing for the people I don't.