1 year of John
I haven't felt so alone in a long time. John was over this weekend, and I have been waiting to hear from him if he would take me back.
Today would have been our one year anniversary of being boyfriends. I don't think I've ever made such a large mistake as to question his position in my life. I understand why someone wouldn't take me back after that, but I don't understand John right now. I've learned quite a bit from my past relationships about what I want and how I want to be treated. John has been an amazing fit. The only piece I was missing was my need for more commitment after this period of time together, and he wasn't ready for it. I always manage to push so hard for something that I end up pushing that something away. I will miss John.
Today would have been our one year anniversary of being boyfriends. I don't think I've ever made such a large mistake as to question his position in my life. I understand why someone wouldn't take me back after that, but I don't understand John right now. I've learned quite a bit from my past relationships about what I want and how I want to be treated. John has been an amazing fit. The only piece I was missing was my need for more commitment after this period of time together, and he wasn't ready for it. I always manage to push so hard for something that I end up pushing that something away. I will miss John.