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God my dad is soo freaking stubborn!! y can't he just compromise or listen to me for once. Its like he has to be right. so the fact that i stayed home all day spent 2 hours cleaning my room then went to school and came home and spent about 30 minutes watching American Idol with my mom and eating dinner doesn't matter b/c of course during all that time i managed to make my room messy again. but no i actually didn't people put mail in there and papers and books and Tucson's stuff. its not my fault they waited until i left to find all the crap they needed to give me. i don't understand what is going on. does anyone remember those 2 weeks where i was just happy? b/c they are fading quickly and im having trouble getting back into my mood of i don't give a crap and no matter what everything is okay b/c oh my god its not. First Todd and then Jackie and then my dad getting mad at me. I feel so guilty and i know i shouldn't b/c there is nothing i can do but now when im sitting in my cozy house and room and enjoying myself i can't help but think about what happened to them. honestly i just need to cry. i've been holding it in and now its gonna flow. sry i sound like im trying to make you all feel sorry for me. Really im not. my life is good and im happy i swear. so don't worry and i love you all