i swear to god! ahh

[grand_aint_it]

i love how the only time i get any attention is when ive done something wrong. can you not acknowledge the good things i do, do. life this year has turned against me. it just has a way torturing me and loving it so much it does it over and over. i need to learn never to get my hopes up for any success because success is not in my future. i wont be surprised if i die alone and unhappy with my life. yea maybe im suposed to learn from my mistakes, but do they all have to come at the same time. i never thought i could be so wrong about every aspect of my life. i never i thought i was such a worth less peice of crap or a "shame to my family". im sick and tired of this shit in my life i hate it and i wish it could just all disappear. maybe it would work better if i just disappeard with it. it seems every time things start to get better everything goes wrong and it all ends up worse. i hate when people let me down. it happend so often you should think i would be used to it by now. i hate how guys can mess with your heart everytime they get a lil lonely then decide they dont need you and would be happier without you. just so they can come back to you when ever they feel the need, knowing you will always take them back. because unlike them you actually have feelings. maybe thats just my fault that i care so much for someone who could careless about me. my mistake. im wrong. im always wrong. are you happy now?

isnt venting grand.