somewhat connected thoughts
A few days ago I decided that I was not in a good mood and that I wanted to portray that in my appearance. Therefore I dressed in the darkest colors that I own, which are mostly light browns, which isn't too far off from what I usually wear. Regardless, I managed to put together something that was quite depressing. Hopefully, the casual onlooker would think to themselves, after looking at me, that "that kid must be really deep and depressed and tragic. so tragic." Then I got a craving for a mango smoothie from bart mart, which really just threw off the whole look. No one that is walking around sipping a frozen orange slushy through a straw will ever look tragic. Never.
Walking with that smoothing brings me to my next point, which is how easy it is for me to get out of breath. Walking up short flights of stairs, walking and trying to...anything else...at the same time, walking in general, they all get me out of breath. Usually like heaving and panting. Cutting pizzas at my job, I get out of breath. Breaking down those pizza boxes (which are esesntially already broken down), gets me out of breath. And I am not even kidding you, eating that pizza gets me out of breath. This isn't unusual either. I am so out of shape that I eating is a cardio workout.
Which brings me to my next topic. I often feel as though I am going to have a heart attack. I don't think my cholesterol or blood pressure is abnormally high (although the chart at the dentist got me worried) but I still get paranoid, which only causes my heart rate to hasten. Now, while that is a big fear of mine, an even bigger fear is that I'll have a full bladder when the heart attack happens. Sometimes I'm walking or sitting with a full bladder and I think to myself, if I were to have a heart attack or just fall over unconscious in general, the people who find me lying on the ground with a big pee spot running down my leg; eew, that is embarrassing.
Which brings me to my next topic. I downloaded the "My Humps" song by the Black Eyed Peas. I also downloaded the Prince song, "I Wanna Be Your Lover." What's worse is that I've listened to the both songs at least 10 times each in the twenty-four hours in which I've had them on my computer. I have a playlist consisting of those two songs and "One Blood Under W" by the Wu-Tang Clan.
My final topic has to do with Prince's song, "I Wanna Be Your Lover." A sample of the lyrics:
"I wanna be your lover
I wanna be your brother
I wanna be your mother and your sister, too"
Ok, Prince, lover, brother, mother, sister...you need to choose ONE and only one. Any combination of two or more is just freaking creepy and gross. eew.
Walking with that smoothing brings me to my next point, which is how easy it is for me to get out of breath. Walking up short flights of stairs, walking and trying to...anything else...at the same time, walking in general, they all get me out of breath. Usually like heaving and panting. Cutting pizzas at my job, I get out of breath. Breaking down those pizza boxes (which are esesntially already broken down), gets me out of breath. And I am not even kidding you, eating that pizza gets me out of breath. This isn't unusual either. I am so out of shape that I eating is a cardio workout.
Which brings me to my next topic. I often feel as though I am going to have a heart attack. I don't think my cholesterol or blood pressure is abnormally high (although the chart at the dentist got me worried) but I still get paranoid, which only causes my heart rate to hasten. Now, while that is a big fear of mine, an even bigger fear is that I'll have a full bladder when the heart attack happens. Sometimes I'm walking or sitting with a full bladder and I think to myself, if I were to have a heart attack or just fall over unconscious in general, the people who find me lying on the ground with a big pee spot running down my leg; eew, that is embarrassing.
Which brings me to my next topic. I downloaded the "My Humps" song by the Black Eyed Peas. I also downloaded the Prince song, "I Wanna Be Your Lover." What's worse is that I've listened to the both songs at least 10 times each in the twenty-four hours in which I've had them on my computer. I have a playlist consisting of those two songs and "One Blood Under W" by the Wu-Tang Clan.
My final topic has to do with Prince's song, "I Wanna Be Your Lover." A sample of the lyrics:
"I wanna be your lover
I wanna be your brother
I wanna be your mother and your sister, too"
Ok, Prince, lover, brother, mother, sister...you need to choose ONE and only one. Any combination of two or more is just freaking creepy and gross. eew.