hard to post
it has been so hard to post. I think I do not like to post my intermost feelings cuz i really not sure what they are. Today my grandma died and I feel sad but i am sad because I feel that I should be sadder. Like maybe just beside myself. I think when you go so long holding in stuff that you start to become so numb that it is hard to feel, happy, happy or really sad.
I think I am just jacked up. I guess numb is not soooo bad but then you miss out on the good stuff too. I'm screwed.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
I think I am just jacked up. I guess numb is not soooo bad but then you miss out on the good stuff too. I'm screwed.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................