surrounded by uncertainty I'm so unsure of
I guess I haven't learned yet that you can't make people care anymore than they do...no matter how hard/much you try. Your heart controls you, not the other way around. But when you have been brought up around people for 18 years I guess those are the only people that matter, no matter what your heart says...no matter what that person has done for you, or what you've been through together.
I know too much for my own good. It hurts to know how much and what I know. It's too powerful. It gets me into trouble. Tells me the truth I can't face. Shows me how much I don't want to know...how people really are.
This weekend will make me a stronger person. And I'll always have a base strength, but I have lost so many layers of what I used to be. Events that have taken place these past couple of weeks have shown me I am stronger than I thought, where my loyalty lies and most importantly that no one can break me but me. And when the dust settles whether I am standing or on my knees, I will always be who I am and I will always be loved.
At the end of this path, I'll be able to look back with no regrets, I'll be sure that I was the best I could have been, and I'll have learned from my mistakes.
I know too much for my own good. It hurts to know how much and what I know. It's too powerful. It gets me into trouble. Tells me the truth I can't face. Shows me how much I don't want to know...how people really are.
This weekend will make me a stronger person. And I'll always have a base strength, but I have lost so many layers of what I used to be. Events that have taken place these past couple of weeks have shown me I am stronger than I thought, where my loyalty lies and most importantly that no one can break me but me. And when the dust settles whether I am standing or on my knees, I will always be who I am and I will always be loved.
At the end of this path, I'll be able to look back with no regrets, I'll be sure that I was the best I could have been, and I'll have learned from my mistakes.