#3 and maybe final
So I just went completely apeshit and told hubby the unadulterated truth. I have been too unhappy for too long and I want a divorce. I can't keep lying to him or myself, thinking that even his sobriety will make things work. I want out. I want to fly and be free. I promised myself that if he ever got well and sober, that I would finally take the time for ME. Now I am forced to. I wish him no ill and want nothing but happiness for him. But I cannot keep doing this to myself.
I have changed over the years and I am no longer content doing whatever I need to do to get by. I have to find a way out of this madness to find the peace and love that my soul craves. I need to be as physically gone from this marriage as I have been emotionally for years.
Revetwolf commented that rings were just a symbol. That is very true. They are a symbol of that which I no longer want or need in my life; symbol of vows that were spoken and broken by both of us. My husband has never been a husband in the true sense of the word. I did everything possible to be a wife, but failed because a marriage cannot be one-sided. Right now he is seeing the error of his ways, but I feel that it is too little too late. he has his second chance at life, literally. now it is time for me as well.
I have changed over the years and I am no longer content doing whatever I need to do to get by. I have to find a way out of this madness to find the peace and love that my soul craves. I need to be as physically gone from this marriage as I have been emotionally for years.
Revetwolf commented that rings were just a symbol. That is very true. They are a symbol of that which I no longer want or need in my life; symbol of vows that were spoken and broken by both of us. My husband has never been a husband in the true sense of the word. I did everything possible to be a wife, but failed because a marriage cannot be one-sided. Right now he is seeing the error of his ways, but I feel that it is too little too late. he has his second chance at life, literally. now it is time for me as well.