Been a while, so I'll tell you what's up, ME!
Ok I know, I know, I haven't been around the blogosphere in a while. Come to tell the truth I haven't really had the time to blog. Life has taken a definite upswing, in my favor no less. The miracle of modern drugs. I have started to notice that the haze that I lived my life in has been lifting. I had been depressed for so long that I didn't know what it meant to not be depressed.
I'm not even sure if I'm not depressed anymore I just know that I feel totally different than I did. I care about my health and well being. I didn't do that before at all. I made some life changes, hopefully for the better. I started taking Karate lessons last week. I've been to three classes so far. I really enjoy them, but I have to say they are kicking my ass. I didn't realize how bad my conditioning really was. After an hour in class I feel like I've been hit by a bus, but in an odd way I feel better for having done the class. It is an alien feeling for me, feeling good about anything.
I have started to enjoy my family more. I know this sounds odd, but just hear me out. I was always there for my family in the past, but in the role of guardian, caregiver and support personnel. I always felt like an outsider who helped out. I am just now starting to feel like a part of the operation. A cog in the mechanism that is out home. It feels good, even if it is a bit overwhelming. I guess that I'm starting to feel "normal" if there really is such a thing.
Even work is starting to get better. I can't say that I'm overjoyed with the state of the union, but I have accepted my role and will just deal with things as they are dealt to me. I'm not going to stress over thing that are not in my control. I just know that I will do everything in my power to do my job and do it well, whatever happens was meant to. I can't allow the games my boss seems to enjoy playing to get to me. He just needs to get his ducks in order and start to realize that he has a good bunch of people here, even if they bitch all the time about everything. I really think that he just tries to hard and sees threats where there really aren't any. Hell he created the atmosphere here, he has to live with it.
On the writing front, I haven't done any in a while. I have been having ideas, and I do plan on going back and finishing my NaNoWriMo novel that I started. I will get back to it as soon as my life calms down and I can make a schedule for my free time.
I also want to give credit for the great cartoons I recent found (including the one up above about the blog) to Gaping Void.com. Check them out.
I'm not even sure if I'm not depressed anymore I just know that I feel totally different than I did. I care about my health and well being. I didn't do that before at all. I made some life changes, hopefully for the better. I started taking Karate lessons last week. I've been to three classes so far. I really enjoy them, but I have to say they are kicking my ass. I didn't realize how bad my conditioning really was. After an hour in class I feel like I've been hit by a bus, but in an odd way I feel better for having done the class. It is an alien feeling for me, feeling good about anything.
I have started to enjoy my family more. I know this sounds odd, but just hear me out. I was always there for my family in the past, but in the role of guardian, caregiver and support personnel. I always felt like an outsider who helped out. I am just now starting to feel like a part of the operation. A cog in the mechanism that is out home. It feels good, even if it is a bit overwhelming. I guess that I'm starting to feel "normal" if there really is such a thing.
Even work is starting to get better. I can't say that I'm overjoyed with the state of the union, but I have accepted my role and will just deal with things as they are dealt to me. I'm not going to stress over thing that are not in my control. I just know that I will do everything in my power to do my job and do it well, whatever happens was meant to. I can't allow the games my boss seems to enjoy playing to get to me. He just needs to get his ducks in order and start to realize that he has a good bunch of people here, even if they bitch all the time about everything. I really think that he just tries to hard and sees threats where there really aren't any. Hell he created the atmosphere here, he has to live with it.
On the writing front, I haven't done any in a while. I have been having ideas, and I do plan on going back and finishing my NaNoWriMo novel that I started. I will get back to it as soon as my life calms down and I can make a schedule for my free time.
I also want to give credit for the great cartoons I recent found (including the one up above about the blog) to Gaping Void.com. Check them out.