Life
I can hear you can you hear me?
I can see you can you see me?
Why wont you answer me?
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
I saw you almost everyday.
I talked to you as much as possible.
You made me smile everytime you entered the room.
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
Now i look apon the eternal sleep,
And all i wish for is one more minute with you.
All i am given is the flashes of my life before me.
I knew you for only a short time, and still
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
i am looking at everyone in the room and i only see you,
you shed a tear out of mourning,
im glad your taking it well.
if only you knew how i felt maybe you felt the same.
but life is to short and i waited around.
and my time ran out.
if i was given a second chance maybe it would be different.
but in life there are no second chances,
it is either do or die, raise or fold.
if only i had knew that earlier.
we could've been together.
but i will never forget the way you made me feel,
in my thoughts, in my dreams,
without even knowing i cared.
Ever wished you could go back in time and change something that maybe you could've done differently, that maybe with changing it your life would be "better." maybe not, maybe you like your life the way it is. If that is you then i am so happy for you i cant even tell you in words. maybe i should just suck it up and "Play the cards delt to me," but why should anyone just sit back and watch thier life go somewhere other than where they wish. maybe you wanna be something that takes a talent you dont have, well you could always try to learn that talent, and if that doesnt work then just become a part in the workins behind what you wanna be. But never should anyone just sit and wait on thier life to end because they have no control over where thier life goes. EVERYONE chooses what they do everyday, and in turn you control where life takes you. So i ask, Is your life where you wish it to be?? If not what are you going to do about it. I am not saying that i am perfect and that i will fix my life today, because i have not the strength. I am scared everyday when i wake up and relise i am one day closer to dieing and still have not went anywhere with my life. What does my life mean?? To me....... nothing, im not a saint i havent done anything to benefit anyone, i try everyday to help someone but most of the time i just fyck up. why cant i just start over? why cant i change what i have done. if i can control what i do today why cant i control what i have already done? but then i think.... wait if i were somewhere else today, i wouldn't have the friends i have, i wouldn't know anyone i work with, shyt the girl i cant stop thinking about would have never entered my life. but wait i think about her all the time, and she doesnt even know. shyt nobody knows. i keep it locked up because she would never be with me, but how would i know this i havent tried, all i ever say to her is a flirt here or there, and trust me i am not the best flirt. then the whole friendship thing jumps into the picture, if i make any kinda move i risk losing her as a friend, or well at least the look in her eyes when she smiles. should i take the risk and just go for it and dont worry about it?? i cant that isnt me i am to scared to risk anything. which is one of many things i wish i could change. i dont write for sympathy i write cause it is the way to let it out without bugging anyone with the constant and i mean constant whinning. my life sucks i have made bad choices all throughout my life so what am i going to do to fix it............
~out
I can see you can you see me?
Why wont you answer me?
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
I saw you almost everyday.
I talked to you as much as possible.
You made me smile everytime you entered the room.
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
Now i look apon the eternal sleep,
And all i wish for is one more minute with you.
All i am given is the flashes of my life before me.
I knew you for only a short time, and still
You were in my head every moment i was awake,
You were even in my dreams,
and yet you had no idea i cared about you.
i am looking at everyone in the room and i only see you,
you shed a tear out of mourning,
im glad your taking it well.
if only you knew how i felt maybe you felt the same.
but life is to short and i waited around.
and my time ran out.
if i was given a second chance maybe it would be different.
but in life there are no second chances,
it is either do or die, raise or fold.
if only i had knew that earlier.
we could've been together.
but i will never forget the way you made me feel,
in my thoughts, in my dreams,
without even knowing i cared.
Ever wished you could go back in time and change something that maybe you could've done differently, that maybe with changing it your life would be "better." maybe not, maybe you like your life the way it is. If that is you then i am so happy for you i cant even tell you in words. maybe i should just suck it up and "Play the cards delt to me," but why should anyone just sit back and watch thier life go somewhere other than where they wish. maybe you wanna be something that takes a talent you dont have, well you could always try to learn that talent, and if that doesnt work then just become a part in the workins behind what you wanna be. But never should anyone just sit and wait on thier life to end because they have no control over where thier life goes. EVERYONE chooses what they do everyday, and in turn you control where life takes you. So i ask, Is your life where you wish it to be?? If not what are you going to do about it. I am not saying that i am perfect and that i will fix my life today, because i have not the strength. I am scared everyday when i wake up and relise i am one day closer to dieing and still have not went anywhere with my life. What does my life mean?? To me....... nothing, im not a saint i havent done anything to benefit anyone, i try everyday to help someone but most of the time i just fyck up. why cant i just start over? why cant i change what i have done. if i can control what i do today why cant i control what i have already done? but then i think.... wait if i were somewhere else today, i wouldn't have the friends i have, i wouldn't know anyone i work with, shyt the girl i cant stop thinking about would have never entered my life. but wait i think about her all the time, and she doesnt even know. shyt nobody knows. i keep it locked up because she would never be with me, but how would i know this i havent tried, all i ever say to her is a flirt here or there, and trust me i am not the best flirt. then the whole friendship thing jumps into the picture, if i make any kinda move i risk losing her as a friend, or well at least the look in her eyes when she smiles. should i take the risk and just go for it and dont worry about it?? i cant that isnt me i am to scared to risk anything. which is one of many things i wish i could change. i dont write for sympathy i write cause it is the way to let it out without bugging anyone with the constant and i mean constant whinning. my life sucks i have made bad choices all throughout my life so what am i going to do to fix it............
~out