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Its been a while since I've updated. Had a long night. Couldn't sleep, kept having nightmares and the like. Jeremy wouldn't wake up and I was freaking out so I came into the living room for a while and just stared at things and freaked out more. Can't get the sound of "radio voices'' out of my mind and its fucking with me. I have to work at two forty five, and I've got kido I gotta drop off at her nannies before I head in. I've noticed since I quite drinking that I don't really have "friends". Every time I try to make plans I get blown off for alcoholic related parties or get togethers. Its really starting to bug me and I don't guess it should. Makes me wonder if I'm just that annoying or if I'm no fun sober. People I considered friends now won't really even talk to me . What makes it worse is that Jeremy blew me off last month too. He didn't even understand why I was so pissed off and upset.
I had been puking and sick for a few days and I was working till close and he sent me a message asking if I wanted to grab a bite to eat when I got off work, I said sure, and asked if he'd mind if I invited D since her husband was working he was okay with that. So I told him she was going, five minutes later he sent me a message asking me if I cared if he went out to troy with friends to the bar (keep in mind he never gets to see them, so I wasn't going to say No no you can't go see your best friends you never get to see and stay out in BFE because your to drunk to drive home) So ether way I was the bad guy. Either I get upset and say no you already made plans with me, or I say sure go, but I'm pissed off because you made plans with me like everyone else and then blew me off. So yea. He still doesn't get why was upset about it.
Anyway I'm just sick of being blown off by everyone, or just plan ignored because I'm pregnant.
I want to rearrange the apartment but I can't move anything because its all to heavy and I get yelled at for doing it. I need to get the T.V. stand to put the T.V. on and have it mounted, but we can't afford it at the moment. I also need to get one or two of my ten gallon tanks from my parents house to set up for the bettas so I can have planted tanks and what not. But again, I need more time and money. Oh well I guess it gives me something to work towards and gives me something to do... who knows, I"ll probably never get around to doing anything.
All I'm doing here is venting and I'm going to get going.. Kido wants to head to nannies so I'm going to cut this "bitch fest " short. Later Days.
Kitty~
I had been puking and sick for a few days and I was working till close and he sent me a message asking if I wanted to grab a bite to eat when I got off work, I said sure, and asked if he'd mind if I invited D since her husband was working he was okay with that. So I told him she was going, five minutes later he sent me a message asking me if I cared if he went out to troy with friends to the bar (keep in mind he never gets to see them, so I wasn't going to say No no you can't go see your best friends you never get to see and stay out in BFE because your to drunk to drive home) So ether way I was the bad guy. Either I get upset and say no you already made plans with me, or I say sure go, but I'm pissed off because you made plans with me like everyone else and then blew me off. So yea. He still doesn't get why was upset about it.
Anyway I'm just sick of being blown off by everyone, or just plan ignored because I'm pregnant.
I want to rearrange the apartment but I can't move anything because its all to heavy and I get yelled at for doing it. I need to get the T.V. stand to put the T.V. on and have it mounted, but we can't afford it at the moment. I also need to get one or two of my ten gallon tanks from my parents house to set up for the bettas so I can have planted tanks and what not. But again, I need more time and money. Oh well I guess it gives me something to work towards and gives me something to do... who knows, I"ll probably never get around to doing anything.
All I'm doing here is venting and I'm going to get going.. Kido wants to head to nannies so I'm going to cut this "bitch fest " short. Later Days.
Kitty~