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Living with yourself is a whole other art than I really thought it was. It takes patience, time, understanding.... almost like a lover. It's a kind of poetry that needs to be nurtured. I'm thinking this college experience is going to be about learning not to make my body...my mind...my entire being a war zone. I can't take it. I've got so much more that's worth it demanding my energy and time and patience. I need to live with myself. Experience the plethora of worlds inside my head and be okay with every single one of them.
I find myself a bit behind in some ways...my vocabulary's been lost since I came to college. But I think that's what this is about. Reconstructing yourself, like globalization, causing the mobility of ideas to form a whole new identity that is completely a new take on life. I should thank God. THANK YOU GOD!
You know, when I came down here, I was screaming, "THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Text doesn't do justice to show how gratifying that was. I'm thinking that that needs to happen much more often down here. I'm thinking it will.
And I'm also thinking crew is probably not for me. I like the team environment...but too much time. I like to dedicate myself to multiple purposes. And if I was honest with myself, I like the idea of the dance team so much more.
I just need to breathe. I need space. I need to join a religious group. I'm thinking Intervarsity at UVM will be good for me. I think I need that tonight. I think I might go. I don't know. I'm kinda confused right now and need to get out of my head.
No...I need to live with myself. I need to write and experience that poetry of just being. The entity of me. And then the entity of everyone. Maybe everyone first.
Love,
Eliza.
I find myself a bit behind in some ways...my vocabulary's been lost since I came to college. But I think that's what this is about. Reconstructing yourself, like globalization, causing the mobility of ideas to form a whole new identity that is completely a new take on life. I should thank God. THANK YOU GOD!
You know, when I came down here, I was screaming, "THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Text doesn't do justice to show how gratifying that was. I'm thinking that that needs to happen much more often down here. I'm thinking it will.
And I'm also thinking crew is probably not for me. I like the team environment...but too much time. I like to dedicate myself to multiple purposes. And if I was honest with myself, I like the idea of the dance team so much more.
I just need to breathe. I need space. I need to join a religious group. I'm thinking Intervarsity at UVM will be good for me. I think I need that tonight. I think I might go. I don't know. I'm kinda confused right now and need to get out of my head.
No...I need to live with myself. I need to write and experience that poetry of just being. The entity of me. And then the entity of everyone. Maybe everyone first.
Love,
Eliza.