This baby...
I don't think people understand how excited I am about having a niece. I've always wanted a baby around and my mother never agreed with me when I would plea,"C'mon just one more!" In fact, I can honestly say I love her already. I can't count the number of baby dreams I have had since my sister's pregnancy. And they seem to be more frequent as the time nears.
The other day I went to visit my cousin that lives up north at her dad's house (who lives here). My other cousin came with her baby (he's only months old) and I was able to hold him. I sort of melted. I mean, I may never have a baby of my own.
Who knows what'll happen? I'm going to adopt, I'm sure. I won't let myself get away with not adopting. I don't care if I'm in a relationship or not. Relationships aren't even important to me. They're really not. All I want is a damn baby and I want it now! (haha)But really, I'd like to one day look into the eyes of a boy or a girl and be proud of what I've raised. Not only that I did a good job, but that I did it despite it being socially awkward.
I've gotten over the fact that I might not find somebody to "marry" but I'm fine with that. Honestly, I'd rather have a child than a "significant other." If that person comes along though, well great.
Right now all of my effort of going to college and getting a good job and degree are more for my ability to raise a child. And I'm being perfectly honest. I only want to be wealthy for that reason. That sounds really odd and out of place especially for my age, but I don't care. At least I'm not greedy.
The AC in my house isn't working too well and I need to brush my teeth(for the 134322342 time today). Goodnight.
The other day I went to visit my cousin that lives up north at her dad's house (who lives here). My other cousin came with her baby (he's only months old) and I was able to hold him. I sort of melted. I mean, I may never have a baby of my own.
Who knows what'll happen? I'm going to adopt, I'm sure. I won't let myself get away with not adopting. I don't care if I'm in a relationship or not. Relationships aren't even important to me. They're really not. All I want is a damn baby and I want it now! (haha)But really, I'd like to one day look into the eyes of a boy or a girl and be proud of what I've raised. Not only that I did a good job, but that I did it despite it being socially awkward.
I've gotten over the fact that I might not find somebody to "marry" but I'm fine with that. Honestly, I'd rather have a child than a "significant other." If that person comes along though, well great.
Right now all of my effort of going to college and getting a good job and degree are more for my ability to raise a child. And I'm being perfectly honest. I only want to be wealthy for that reason. That sounds really odd and out of place especially for my age, but I don't care. At least I'm not greedy.
The AC in my house isn't working too well and I need to brush my teeth(for the 134322342 time today). Goodnight.