biiiirthdays are the best days
so its my birthday for 4 more minutes. thats exciting.
i really love my birthday. its just a good day. i have an excuse to be a spoiled brat and it seems like everything goes right.
i could write a creative response to getting older, getting wiser, but why bother. i never really act my age on my birthday anyway. the one im turning or the previous one. thats ok.
next is 20. wow. 20. that seems so old. i remember thinking when i was a little kid that there would no way i would go to college. i just didn't picture myself there...i couldn't imagine it...i couldn't visualize that. but here i am. almost 7 months in, and now the things in my life here have become regularities. i don't know how i feel about that. its not like when i go home i slip into the way things were...not really. maybe a little bit.
t-san was great for me today, and im not just saying that because she will probably read this. for real.
im tempted to write more, but all i can think of would be a mundane listing of today's activities. i'm too tired for that now. all i will say is that i'm excited for warm weather even though it is more than likely our room will soon turn into a sauna. oh, lack of ac.
i guess i like where i'm at right now. there are a few things that have to change. maybe. i don't have the capabilities to make the life-altering changes that i should be.
i think i'm just waiting for a moment where everything will be clear, a revelation, an epiphany, i don't know. i still can't see myself as an adult functioning in the real adult world, but i suppose that i will soon(er than i think) look back on this feeling and say "here i am. all grown up."
when do you know when you are grown up? where is the line between childhood and adulthood? i guess its different for everyone. some people my age have crossed it, and some may never.
ok this is too deep and weird, and i have physics in...like 7 hours. oh gosh. so its time to hit the hay.
i really love my birthday. its just a good day. i have an excuse to be a spoiled brat and it seems like everything goes right.
i could write a creative response to getting older, getting wiser, but why bother. i never really act my age on my birthday anyway. the one im turning or the previous one. thats ok.
next is 20. wow. 20. that seems so old. i remember thinking when i was a little kid that there would no way i would go to college. i just didn't picture myself there...i couldn't imagine it...i couldn't visualize that. but here i am. almost 7 months in, and now the things in my life here have become regularities. i don't know how i feel about that. its not like when i go home i slip into the way things were...not really. maybe a little bit.
t-san was great for me today, and im not just saying that because she will probably read this. for real.
im tempted to write more, but all i can think of would be a mundane listing of today's activities. i'm too tired for that now. all i will say is that i'm excited for warm weather even though it is more than likely our room will soon turn into a sauna. oh, lack of ac.
i guess i like where i'm at right now. there are a few things that have to change. maybe. i don't have the capabilities to make the life-altering changes that i should be.
i think i'm just waiting for a moment where everything will be clear, a revelation, an epiphany, i don't know. i still can't see myself as an adult functioning in the real adult world, but i suppose that i will soon(er than i think) look back on this feeling and say "here i am. all grown up."
when do you know when you are grown up? where is the line between childhood and adulthood? i guess its different for everyone. some people my age have crossed it, and some may never.
ok this is too deep and weird, and i have physics in...like 7 hours. oh gosh. so its time to hit the hay.