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I feel like a dead man walking. Not like going to TN is the death sentence but I feel like I'll be so far away from everyone I love. BTW the party went well but there were FAR less people than i anticipated I am dissapointed in anyone that didn't show...... I leave wednesday, in the early morning. Josh said I shouldn't see him that morning because then I won't want to get in the car and leave. This is going to be the hardest thing I'll ever have to do. I came home from the hospital to this house!! I grew up with the same people in mandarin schools. I love Josh and if he loves me enough back he'll be here for me when i get back. I have a group of friends that love and care about me sooooooooooo much and i'm leaving them behind. Wish me luck, and a few words of encouragement would be nice too, i dunno if i can do this all on my own.