Stay (1/?)
Title:Stay
Author: graciepoox0
Pairing:Jalex
Rating:R
Summary:And I'll be here in the morning if you say 'stay'.
Disclaimer:I don't own anything, title and summary belong to Safteysuit.
Notes: at the end
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It's cold out here, I'm lonely, and the rumbling in my stomach is telling me that I'm starving. Running away probably wasn't the smartest idea, especially since I only had $60 in my back pocket, two bottles of water, and three changes of clothes all shoved into one small backpack. It's been two days since I've left my home and started to wander the streets, leaving me with only half the money I started with. I would walk to the nearest gas station to buy at least a poptart, but I needed to save this money if I wanted to make it another day or two.
It's not easy, running away at only 17. It takes a lot of skillful planning, and the right moment. I waited until my parents were sleeping soundly in their room, my brother was at work, my sister May off at school. No one would suspect a thing, until it were time for school the next morning. I knew my mom would walk into my bedroom in hopes of waking my lazy ass up, only to find an empty bed. It was perect, really. I mean, it was cruel to do this to my family, especially my mother, but it was the perfect plan. I packed my bag after school, grabbing whatever clothes I could find that looked remotely clean. It wasn't that hard, I had just done laundry the night before. The hard part though, was shoving them all into one bag and hiding that said bag until I left. I stashed it behind the couch (original, right?), making a mental note to actually remember to grab it when the time came. I had no idea what I was going to do food wise; I'm sure my mother would notice a bunch of things missing if I decided to take them with me. Instead, I made sure to feed myself until I felt like I was going to throw up, just in case I wouldn't be seeing a meal within the passing days
"Jack, why are you eating so much?" My mother asked, and instead of coming up with a terrible lie, I simply told her "I didn't eat lunch at school, Mom." It was a lie, yes, but she seemed to buy it, so I wasn't complaining too much.
An hour or so passed, and finally my parents went to bed. Taking a deep breath, I sighed and took my mom's hand, holding it tight in my own. "I love you, Mom." Wrapping my arms around her torso tightly, I gave an extra squeeze, kissed her forehead, and allowed her to go drift off into another world.
I waited for a few hours until I figured they were sleeping, and that's when I began writing the letters.
First, I wrote one to my parents. I wanted them to know it wasn't their fault I left, and that I loved them. I didn't tell them if I would be back or not, because I really didn't know for myself if I would be. I told them not to worry, that I'll be okay. I mean, I am Jack Barakat anyway.
Then, came the hardest letter of all. My letter to Alex. I stared at the piece of paper for a good 40 minutes before I even figured out what to say. I took a deep breath, and tried my best to keep calm as my feelings poured out onto the blank sheet.
Alex,
Dammit, Lex. I had what I wanted to say to you tucked up deep in my brain, and now it's gone. I don't know how I'm going to tell you this now, because my original plan would have worked out so much better. I've been staring at this piece of paper for the longest time now, and nothing's come to me. Well I guess, I guess I can say I'm leaving. I don't know where I'm going yet, or how I'm gonna survive out there on my own, but I need to get out. You know I'm gonna be like a lost fucking puppy out there on the streets, but it's whats best for me, Lex. Don't come looking for me, please. I'm a big boy, I can take care of myself, so I'm sure I'll be fine, where ever I wind up. If you think I'm doing this to get away from my family, or to get away from you, I'm not. I just need...I need to get away from everything, Alex. You understand that, right? I hope you do, because I don't want you to be mad at me for doing something so stupid. I love you, Lex. I have since day one. Don't forget that while I'm out here on my own, alright? Don't forget that you love me, either. Because your love is the only thing I'm going to be able to survive on right now.
I'll see ya around xx
I folded the paper up into a small square, scribbled Alex's name across the front, and left both on the kitchen table. Grabbing my bag, I opened the door as quietly as I could, and stepped out into the cold, night air.
There was no turning back now.
Author's Note: I rarely write in first person, because I feel like I repeat myself too much, so this is my first actual shot at making this work. It's somewhat short, but the next few chapters will be longer, I promise. I hope you enjoy it~ Comments are always nice (:
Author: graciepoox0
Pairing:Jalex
Rating:R
Summary:And I'll be here in the morning if you say 'stay'.
Disclaimer:I don't own anything, title and summary belong to Safteysuit.
Notes: at the end
Tumblr
Masterpost
It's cold out here, I'm lonely, and the rumbling in my stomach is telling me that I'm starving. Running away probably wasn't the smartest idea, especially since I only had $60 in my back pocket, two bottles of water, and three changes of clothes all shoved into one small backpack. It's been two days since I've left my home and started to wander the streets, leaving me with only half the money I started with. I would walk to the nearest gas station to buy at least a poptart, but I needed to save this money if I wanted to make it another day or two.
It's not easy, running away at only 17. It takes a lot of skillful planning, and the right moment. I waited until my parents were sleeping soundly in their room, my brother was at work, my sister May off at school. No one would suspect a thing, until it were time for school the next morning. I knew my mom would walk into my bedroom in hopes of waking my lazy ass up, only to find an empty bed. It was perect, really. I mean, it was cruel to do this to my family, especially my mother, but it was the perfect plan. I packed my bag after school, grabbing whatever clothes I could find that looked remotely clean. It wasn't that hard, I had just done laundry the night before. The hard part though, was shoving them all into one bag and hiding that said bag until I left. I stashed it behind the couch (original, right?), making a mental note to actually remember to grab it when the time came. I had no idea what I was going to do food wise; I'm sure my mother would notice a bunch of things missing if I decided to take them with me. Instead, I made sure to feed myself until I felt like I was going to throw up, just in case I wouldn't be seeing a meal within the passing days
"Jack, why are you eating so much?" My mother asked, and instead of coming up with a terrible lie, I simply told her "I didn't eat lunch at school, Mom." It was a lie, yes, but she seemed to buy it, so I wasn't complaining too much.
An hour or so passed, and finally my parents went to bed. Taking a deep breath, I sighed and took my mom's hand, holding it tight in my own. "I love you, Mom." Wrapping my arms around her torso tightly, I gave an extra squeeze, kissed her forehead, and allowed her to go drift off into another world.
I waited for a few hours until I figured they were sleeping, and that's when I began writing the letters.
First, I wrote one to my parents. I wanted them to know it wasn't their fault I left, and that I loved them. I didn't tell them if I would be back or not, because I really didn't know for myself if I would be. I told them not to worry, that I'll be okay. I mean, I am Jack Barakat anyway.
Then, came the hardest letter of all. My letter to Alex. I stared at the piece of paper for a good 40 minutes before I even figured out what to say. I took a deep breath, and tried my best to keep calm as my feelings poured out onto the blank sheet.
Alex,
Dammit, Lex. I had what I wanted to say to you tucked up deep in my brain, and now it's gone. I don't know how I'm going to tell you this now, because my original plan would have worked out so much better. I've been staring at this piece of paper for the longest time now, and nothing's come to me. Well I guess, I guess I can say I'm leaving. I don't know where I'm going yet, or how I'm gonna survive out there on my own, but I need to get out. You know I'm gonna be like a lost fucking puppy out there on the streets, but it's whats best for me, Lex. Don't come looking for me, please. I'm a big boy, I can take care of myself, so I'm sure I'll be fine, where ever I wind up. If you think I'm doing this to get away from my family, or to get away from you, I'm not. I just need...I need to get away from everything, Alex. You understand that, right? I hope you do, because I don't want you to be mad at me for doing something so stupid. I love you, Lex. I have since day one. Don't forget that while I'm out here on my own, alright? Don't forget that you love me, either. Because your love is the only thing I'm going to be able to survive on right now.
I'll see ya around xx
I folded the paper up into a small square, scribbled Alex's name across the front, and left both on the kitchen table. Grabbing my bag, I opened the door as quietly as I could, and stepped out into the cold, night air.
There was no turning back now.
Author's Note: I rarely write in first person, because I feel like I repeat myself too much, so this is my first actual shot at making this work. It's somewhat short, but the next few chapters will be longer, I promise. I hope you enjoy it~ Comments are always nice (: