Number sixty-eight.
3 things you use everyday:
my glasses, my pen, my cellular phone
3 things you want right now:
a phone call, an A in French class, an explanation to stuff in general
3 things that make you cry:
failing, friends, frills
3 things that scare you:
future, people, being alone
3 things that make you happy:
no homework, whose line is it anyway?, talking
3 things that you couldnt live without:
oxygen, reading material, friends/family
3 things you hate:
ignorance/smartasses, homework, confusion
3 things you want to do before you die:
go to africa, get a 5k under 20:00, climb a mountain
3 goals for this year:
get my license before the summer, get an A in AP, be less paranoid
3 people who make you laugh:
Monica, Chris, Austin
3 people you love:
family and friends.
3 people that you could tell anything to:
...
3 things you can't do:
whistle, stop biting my nails, be content
3 of your favorite foods:
fruit snacks, taquitos, tofu
3 random facts about yourself:
i'm always thinking mathematically... like i'll pick a number, and i'll start counting by it. 19, 18, 17, 16, 15, all those numbers i know the multiples of. i can pretty much say all the multiples easily fast up to the number 30.
i'm usually always happy or at least i act like it, and if i'm not happy and instead i'm sad and i act sad, it's for a major reason.
right now my alarm clock is my cellular tellular.
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Assignment #51
Describe what to do with your body when you die.
Here is your chance to think about and describe what you would like done with your body after you die. Do you want to be buried in a cemetery, cremated and scattered in the ocean, composted beneath an apple tree? If you don't make some decisions now, someone else will make them for you later. Feel free to be creative but try to make sure that what you describe for your final remains will be legal and really possible (not fantasy), so that your friends and family can actually carry out your wishes when the time comes. If there is a particular ceremony or activity that you would like to have accompany your final Good Bye, describe that too.
What I would like to happen to me when I die... wow, why am I doing this when I'm 16 years old? Well. Right now what I'd like is... if there is a kid out there who needs something of mine, then by all means, take it. But please don't bury me. I'd want to be cremated into ashes, and I'd want some of my ashes everywhere possible. Some of my ashes near home, some in the ocean, some underneath an apple tree, some in Africa, some flown over a mountain, etc. etc. You get the drift. Also, before I get cremated, I'd want the people that come to my funeral each to write a written note, and gather up those notes, then burn all those notes along with me.
And this is really all I can delve into right now.
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9 lasts
last cigarette: never
last beverage: caramel shake
last hug: Monica
last movie seen: i have no clue
last phone call: Monica
last cd played: NSYNC
last time you cried: tonight
8 have you evers
have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
have you ever skinny dipped: no
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: no
have you ever kissed a friend? yes
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
have you ever been depressed: not clinically
have you ever been drunk and thrown up: no
7 states you've been to
1. Washington
2. California
3. New York
4. Massachusetts
5. Washington DC
6. Oregon
7. one of those states where i stopped to connect to another flight
6 things you've done today
1. swam
2. ridden a car
3. listened to music
4. cursed
5. wrote
6. cried
5 favorite things in no order
1. food
2. green
3. birthdays
4. tape
5. ben folds
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to
1.
2.
3.
4.
3 wishes
1. one day i won't have problems with friends
2. one trimester i'll get an A in AP
3. one day i can be on a varsity team
2 things you want to do before you die
1. go to africa
2. celebrate new year's in times square or another country
1 thing you regret
1. .........
These are all the songs I've been listening to as of late.
Bold, especially.
Ben Folds Five, "Best Imitation of Myself"
Ben Folds Five, "Boxing"
Ben Folds Five, "Missing the War"
Ben Folds Five, "Evaporated"
Ben Kweller, "Living Life"
Ben Kweller, "Different But the Same"
Ben Kweller, "Falling"
Billy Bragg, "Another Man's Done Gone"
Coldplay, "The Scientist"
Coldplay, "Trouble"
Coldplay, "What If"
David Gray, "This Year's Love"
Keane, "We Might as Well be Strangers"
Phantom Planet, "California 2005"
REM, "Nightswimming"
Rufus Wainwright, "Hallelujah"
Sarah McLachlan, "Angel"
Simon & Garfunkel, "Bridge Over Troubled Water"
My moody/sad/calm music obsession continues.
Another week gone shitty. And I thought yesterday was terrible. People proceed to provoke me when I don't need to be provoked. I was two seconds away (quite frankly) from slapping Peter Carlson in 2nd period. Maybe this is why I am listening to calm music. Or is it that my life isn't great because of me listening to calm music? No, it's the first, not the latter. My grades are falling, I'm having little problems that annoy me with my family, I'm having problems with my friends, I'm having problems with my teachers,I'm having problems with swimming, I'm having problems with my plan/future, and I'm having problems with myself most of all.
This weekend I'm busy and need to get work done but hopefully somewhere in between all that work I can fit in a nice, long, relaxing run. Or just time to think. I used to have so much time to think. Where'd it go?
Saturday's Agenda:
(7:30-10:00AM) intersquad meet
(10:00AM-12:00PM) rest, food, homework
(12:00PM-2:00PM) shopping for allison and etc.
(2:00PM-3:00PM) run
(3:00PM-whenever) homework
Sunday's Agenda:
Homework the entire day, including getting the dumb taebo routine done.
If time possible, go on a run. But I doubt it.
Oh, and I've committed myself that when I go to Hong Kong I am running every single day SOMEHOW, even if that includes running on a damn treadmill. How I despise treadmills with such a passion.
In other news, Ben Kweller is absolutely amazing.