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well...i guess things have been a little blah lately...not completely but kind of...
school is actually pretty good...i'm actually trying really hard in all my classes...and i'm doing pretty freakin good....work is the same, they are hiring so people should come get a job!!!!....$7 an hour, up to 25 hrs a week....good crap there....i've been really tired...and sooo busy and yet i'm so lonely and bored....its quite sad really...i need some inspiration, i need to get away and just paint and draw and do my own thing...hagerstown is a really sucky place to do that....
i love watching SEX AND THE CITY and wishing i was in their shoes....its really sad that i have to wish i was someone else, when i should really be happy about who i am and what i'm doing with my life, but i guess i'm not really sure what i am doing with my life....its all really retarded to me....i mean i go to school then i'm expected to back to school (college) then get a job then get married and then have a family and everyone be happy and yay!....i dont want to do that tho....i'd rather not go to college and do my own thing....travel places and meet people...then come home to my little studio apartment in NYC...maybe get married if i'm ever lucky enough to find that perfect guy...and then die happy.....so far, i kno exactly what will happen in the next couple months....school, work, church, stuff for school, summer, being bored......
for now i guess i'm fine with my monocromatic life style.....just wishing a little technocolor will come into play in the near future.....one can only dream
school is actually pretty good...i'm actually trying really hard in all my classes...and i'm doing pretty freakin good....work is the same, they are hiring so people should come get a job!!!!....$7 an hour, up to 25 hrs a week....good crap there....i've been really tired...and sooo busy and yet i'm so lonely and bored....its quite sad really...i need some inspiration, i need to get away and just paint and draw and do my own thing...hagerstown is a really sucky place to do that....
i love watching SEX AND THE CITY and wishing i was in their shoes....its really sad that i have to wish i was someone else, when i should really be happy about who i am and what i'm doing with my life, but i guess i'm not really sure what i am doing with my life....its all really retarded to me....i mean i go to school then i'm expected to back to school (college) then get a job then get married and then have a family and everyone be happy and yay!....i dont want to do that tho....i'd rather not go to college and do my own thing....travel places and meet people...then come home to my little studio apartment in NYC...maybe get married if i'm ever lucky enough to find that perfect guy...and then die happy.....so far, i kno exactly what will happen in the next couple months....school, work, church, stuff for school, summer, being bored......
for now i guess i'm fine with my monocromatic life style.....just wishing a little technocolor will come into play in the near future.....one can only dream