weird
okay so i was at work today and I was doing checks and then I got hit with some ultra depression issues. . .it was weird I wanted to just break down and cry. I had so much running through my head. . i mean I am always complaining about the way I look and how I think I am SO ugly and how I need to do something to change that. . but yet. . . I eat chips, then go to Mcdonalds eat a hamburger. . i mean. . why cant i be disciplined???? then i was thinking about mom and dad and karen . . . its just a mess. . i mean how would things be like if mom and dad were still together. . then I was thinking of what dad did to mom. . i mean cheat with another woman for over 18 years if not more, I cant imagine the pain mom went though. And now. . dad in NY . . mom in PA. . . Karen in PA. . .then karen and all her new issues that I can help with because I am here in VA. . . i wish I could help. I wish we were all together. i really miss my family. i dunno. . its just that time for me. . . that time where I need to take a nice long drive and cry. . *sigh*
i'm out
i'm out