wednesday
well it's hump day, and I must say it was not a bad day as far as work goes. :) I got a lot of work done I finished Monday and tuesdays work on Tuesday and this morning as well as completing today's work EARLY and finishing Thursdays work. . my boss told me today. . I would have to say you are "amazing" and all while being tired!! ROCK ON!
so yes, the trip was super awesome I had such a good time seeing my dad. I miss him so much I hate that he is in NY the same for my mom and sister being in PA. . its not fair sometimes. I mean I still look back and think about how things would be if they were still together. why did things need to change? why did he have to be unfaithful?? Why did mom need to marry Don. . someone I hate?? I wish mom and dad were back together. . it will never happen too. . .
so yeah the trip was awesome. . . we went to Grandpa's house and it was just so weird not having him there. . not seeing him in his chair in the kitchen with his beer and cigarette. Or not having him in the living room sitting on the couch chair and watching the Yankee game. Then taking a walk downstairs in the basement seeing all of Uncle Erics furniture there. . sucks to have people you love die.
so jon talked to dad and now I am just waiting. :)
still fat as anything. . still ugly. . . still hate living here. . . still miss mom and dad and Karen. . i am in the mood to cry right now. I could seriously break down and just cry. . . but then i will get swamped with "whats wrong?" and I am just not up to talking and then it would turn into "i never want to talk about it." and I dont want to deal. . .i just want to cry and go on. . .
so yeah
applebees. . . yummy
okay
i
am
out
so yes, the trip was super awesome I had such a good time seeing my dad. I miss him so much I hate that he is in NY the same for my mom and sister being in PA. . its not fair sometimes. I mean I still look back and think about how things would be if they were still together. why did things need to change? why did he have to be unfaithful?? Why did mom need to marry Don. . someone I hate?? I wish mom and dad were back together. . it will never happen too. . .
so yeah the trip was awesome. . . we went to Grandpa's house and it was just so weird not having him there. . not seeing him in his chair in the kitchen with his beer and cigarette. Or not having him in the living room sitting on the couch chair and watching the Yankee game. Then taking a walk downstairs in the basement seeing all of Uncle Erics furniture there. . sucks to have people you love die.
so jon talked to dad and now I am just waiting. :)
still fat as anything. . still ugly. . . still hate living here. . . still miss mom and dad and Karen. . i am in the mood to cry right now. I could seriously break down and just cry. . . but then i will get swamped with "whats wrong?" and I am just not up to talking and then it would turn into "i never want to talk about it." and I dont want to deal. . .i just want to cry and go on. . .
so yeah
applebees. . . yummy
okay
i
am
out