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So, never in my life have I ever felt inferior because I'm a girl until today. It's over something really stupid too, and I don't know why I feel this way, but I do. At camp, where I work, we've started playing football on fridays. I'm a team captain, you'd think I'd get to play some... but in all actuality, I'm really kind of pointless out there. I could be standing in the end zone with no one around me and all the other people could be surrounded by the other team and I would still never get the ball. I know it's stupid since the people I'm playing with are between the ages of 6-13, but still. I spent all week planning who I wanted to do what and I was really excited, I was going to be quarter back, but then one of the other counselors friends came and he kind of took over my team. And there's really nothing I could do about it. Even if he knew as little about football as I do, my team would still rather have him as a leader than me just because he's a guy. Am I just in my own little planet where I've never had this happen to me before, but everyone else in the world has? I don't even know why it bothers me so much, but it does. It's like I've spent all summer trying to bond with these kids and I'm finally doing something where I can bond with the older kids and someone else swoops in and takes that from me. Am I wrong to be this upset about it? Am I crazy? I just don't understand how out of all the tall people on the team, which is like four, I never ever get to touch the ball. It was even MY ball today and I still didn't get to touch it. I even told them I was going to be quarter back...see how well that went. It's ridiculous I know. I'm playing with children I shouldn't get so upset about, but I am. I just needed to vent a little, I guess.
That's all about my sorry and pathetic life.
That's all about my sorry and pathetic life.