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yesterday was rather eventful.
i had lunch with my father and just talked to him.
he told me not to be so don't on myself, that i'm a perfectly capable person,
that i'm going to be just fine.
i know all this already.
the hard part then, is just applying it.
then after lunch, i drove home only to get off the exit and spontaneously get my hair cut/eyebrows waxed.
it's a little shorter, but basically the same style-ish.
then i went to my bank, mailed my electric bill, and then to the parent's house.
i sort of just lied around until my mom came home.
she asked me all the questions she had basically asked me on the phone and
bascially all the questions dad had asked me as well.
i asked her how she found out about how i as feeling
and apparently someone read a note that i posted on facebook [i removed it, btw, because i thought i was being dumb]
and called her apparently saying i was going to kill myself.
no where in that note
did i make any such threat.
i love my life, and i might joke about it sometimes, but
don't get me wrong,
i'm too much of a puss
to ever kill myself.
so basically they didn't haul me off to the doctor,
they just told me i freak out too easily
[which is what i have heard from them, tanner, jessica, kyle, and various others for months now]
and i just need to learn to calm myself
when the pressure starts seeping through.
i agree, really.
i mean, i know i'm going to get stressed and freak out,
but i know i'm going to calm back down
in due time as well.
but overall, it was a nice visit.
i went to be around midnight or before
[i don't exactly remember]
and i woke up this morning feeling decently refreshed.
then drove back to louisville
and i am awaiting my day.
and then once it's over,
i'm going home for a nap.
and we'll see what the rest of the weekend brings for me.
but here's to feeling slightly optimistic about
such a hopeless world.
i had lunch with my father and just talked to him.
he told me not to be so don't on myself, that i'm a perfectly capable person,
that i'm going to be just fine.
i know all this already.
the hard part then, is just applying it.
then after lunch, i drove home only to get off the exit and spontaneously get my hair cut/eyebrows waxed.
it's a little shorter, but basically the same style-ish.
then i went to my bank, mailed my electric bill, and then to the parent's house.
i sort of just lied around until my mom came home.
she asked me all the questions she had basically asked me on the phone and
bascially all the questions dad had asked me as well.
i asked her how she found out about how i as feeling
and apparently someone read a note that i posted on facebook [i removed it, btw, because i thought i was being dumb]
and called her apparently saying i was going to kill myself.
no where in that note
did i make any such threat.
i love my life, and i might joke about it sometimes, but
don't get me wrong,
i'm too much of a puss
to ever kill myself.
so basically they didn't haul me off to the doctor,
they just told me i freak out too easily
[which is what i have heard from them, tanner, jessica, kyle, and various others for months now]
and i just need to learn to calm myself
when the pressure starts seeping through.
i agree, really.
i mean, i know i'm going to get stressed and freak out,
but i know i'm going to calm back down
in due time as well.
but overall, it was a nice visit.
i went to be around midnight or before
[i don't exactly remember]
and i woke up this morning feeling decently refreshed.
then drove back to louisville
and i am awaiting my day.
and then once it's over,
i'm going home for a nap.
and we'll see what the rest of the weekend brings for me.
but here's to feeling slightly optimistic about
such a hopeless world.