to occupy, i think

[graceofsaturn]

yesterday i went to the beach, and it was okay.
after the beach i went camping, and that was okay too.
drove home, feeling okay.
took a nap, also okay
awoke and pondered all that was okay
and all that should be more than okay

i'm not okay with mere okay-ness

while i'm not much the individual who lives for 'having fun', as so many seem to prioritize...
it scares the hell out of me that i can't seem to 'have' much of it anymore, in the group-setting, laugh-til-you-choke, risk-of-mild-to-moderate-bodily-harm,
create-ridiculously-fabulous-experiences-to-chronicle-together-later way

have
synonyms: accept, acquire, admit, annex, bear, carry, compass, enjoy, gain, get, hold, include, keep, land, obtain, occupy, own, pick up, possess, procure, receive, retain, secure, take