Weellll...
I think that I'm the type that when I have hit bottom and know I'm not going to be happy for awhile I buy things to feel better. I spent nearly $50 today which is a lot for me because I'm generally pretty frugal - (albeit two of those items I need for my Hallowe'en costume).
On the subject of Hallowe'en I got the fishnet glove I need and I decided that in the stead of a complete bandage on the other arm I'm using a leather gauntlet that I found on my 10 minute mall excursion. I may possibly bandage my palm or some fingers though on the gauntlet hand.
As for the rest of the stuff I spent $30 of that on make-up. Yes, we all know I love
make-up but I never spend thirty all at once. I accumulate one thing at a time.
-sigh- It's cool stuff and all but I know I only did it to feel better about myself. I don't really understand completely why I feel so horrible about ME when it's just the things in my life that are going horribly. I'm just going through a dysthymic stage caused by circumstance. I also just found out that my old youth group (Eli's) has changed their youth night to thursdays which I can't go to obviously because it's 2 hours away and I have school the next day. I was planning on going this friday because I'll be out there. My options of communicating with him are getting cut off by life or ignored by him. I just don't get why he won't speak to me. I didn't do anything wrong that I can think of. Guh, I just want to talk to him so I can straighten this fecal mess out.
I had a really disgusting latte at Starbucks today. It was Pumpkin Spice. The frappucino is good; the regular coffee version is good; the latte is the suck. Don't drink it.
On the subject of Hallowe'en I got the fishnet glove I need and I decided that in the stead of a complete bandage on the other arm I'm using a leather gauntlet that I found on my 10 minute mall excursion. I may possibly bandage my palm or some fingers though on the gauntlet hand.
As for the rest of the stuff I spent $30 of that on make-up. Yes, we all know I love
make-up but I never spend thirty all at once. I accumulate one thing at a time.
-sigh- It's cool stuff and all but I know I only did it to feel better about myself. I don't really understand completely why I feel so horrible about ME when it's just the things in my life that are going horribly. I'm just going through a dysthymic stage caused by circumstance. I also just found out that my old youth group (Eli's) has changed their youth night to thursdays which I can't go to obviously because it's 2 hours away and I have school the next day. I was planning on going this friday because I'll be out there. My options of communicating with him are getting cut off by life or ignored by him. I just don't get why he won't speak to me. I didn't do anything wrong that I can think of. Guh, I just want to talk to him so I can straighten this fecal mess out.
I had a really disgusting latte at Starbucks today. It was Pumpkin Spice. The frappucino is good; the regular coffee version is good; the latte is the suck. Don't drink it.