look for me in california

[gracefulmistake]

california's a long way away, baby
and you are so far
and here there is a fight inside
that rages with hate and wishes of demise
why doesn't she just go?
why can't she just leave us alone

the silence begs for my words
but these lips have been sealed
since my lover left this afternoon
on a plane to california...
left me with responsibilities
but yet, no power,
so it is helpless,
hopeless sways my direction,
my mood moves south

and i want to sleep
to take away the hate
to erase all of the hurt, make it even again
clear the slate, open your heart to love
and life and beautiful
in all of the ugly

look for me in california