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Dude I suck. I have nothing but him, friends, and the peace I get in my sleep, which doesnt seem to come to easy anymore nor last for that long. I've thrown everything away. Everything that I ever had going for me seems gone. I know I can still try and blah blah blah but it all seems like a load of shit. all I ever wanted to do and graduate and pack up my shit and leave this shit hole. I'm not sure where'd I'd go, just away, away from here. I feel so lost. It sucks. THe worst part is that I know I'm fucking up but i keep doing it and I keep fucking things up more. Maybe not on purpose but its happening and it sucks. Life isnt really fun anymore. It just seems to consist of the same things but i guess thats how it was before. =/
I cant believe I told my mom all that shit today.. At first it felt kind of good but now it just feels bad. I feel like maybe I shouldnt of told her. =/ Oh well, What is done is done i supose.
Though I do look forward to this afternoon because I get to spend time with sean and sean always makes me feel better and gets my mind off my troubles. He is so great.
I really want some panda express. I hope Bah will by it for me on friday. heh.
Well here comes another night of boredom where i cant fall asleep until the early morning and then I sleep the day away. Man I suck.
I cant believe I told my mom all that shit today.. At first it felt kind of good but now it just feels bad. I feel like maybe I shouldnt of told her. =/ Oh well, What is done is done i supose.
Though I do look forward to this afternoon because I get to spend time with sean and sean always makes me feel better and gets my mind off my troubles. He is so great.
I really want some panda express. I hope Bah will by it for me on friday. heh.
Well here comes another night of boredom where i cant fall asleep until the early morning and then I sleep the day away. Man I suck.