this is how i feel right now.
SPLASH0322 (2:19:11 AM): yeah im glad to be home
SPLASH0322 (2:19:28 AM): i had a kind of a rough day/night though
LittleWonder97 (2:19:49 AM): aww
LittleWonder97 (2:19:52 AM): how so?
SPLASH0322 (2:20:03 AM): did you know about my sister's friend dying? earlier this year?
LittleWonder97 (2:20:24 AM): yeah
SPLASH0322 (2:23:27 AM): well tonight she had a trampoline meet that i went to and watched her, and i kind of consider myself like a big sister to her whole team, i love them so much and whenever i would go to her big meets in different cities i would kind of be like the chaperone for the kids while the parents all went out to bars and stuff and would take them shopping, to the mall, to the movies, whatever, you know, and so its really hard for me to like watch them do trampoline first of all, because it scares me a lot now, and also tomorrow is my sister's birthday so she had them all over to go swimming and hang out and stuff and its really hard for me to watch the group all playing and laughing together because i keep thinking, theres one missing, theres one all alone in a casket in montgomery.... i kept tearing up and having to go upstairs so i didnt upset anybody
LittleWonder97 (2:24:04 AM): awww
LittleWonder97 (2:24:13 AM): im so sorry grace
LittleWonder97 (2:24:22 AM): that must be so hard...hang in there kiddo...
SPLASH0322 (2:24:38 AM): i know, i know, theres not a lot to say i just felt like saying that to someone for some reason
LittleWonder97 (2:25:17 AM): yah, it's kewl. u can always talk to me...dont u forget that
SPLASH0322 (2:26:16 AM): of course... its just like jordan was such a big part of this group of people, like my sister and jordan were the oldest, and the best, and kind of like the leaders, and its such an obvious gaping hole that he isn't there when i watch them all having fun together
SPLASH0322 (2:26:36 AM): it makes me sick to my stomach... its a lot easier when im so far removed in new york
LittleWonder97 (2:26:42 AM): i know
SPLASH0322 (2:27:23 AM): i dont understand why these things have to happen
SPLASH0322 (2:19:28 AM): i had a kind of a rough day/night though
LittleWonder97 (2:19:49 AM): aww
LittleWonder97 (2:19:52 AM): how so?
SPLASH0322 (2:20:03 AM): did you know about my sister's friend dying? earlier this year?
LittleWonder97 (2:20:24 AM): yeah
SPLASH0322 (2:23:27 AM): well tonight she had a trampoline meet that i went to and watched her, and i kind of consider myself like a big sister to her whole team, i love them so much and whenever i would go to her big meets in different cities i would kind of be like the chaperone for the kids while the parents all went out to bars and stuff and would take them shopping, to the mall, to the movies, whatever, you know, and so its really hard for me to like watch them do trampoline first of all, because it scares me a lot now, and also tomorrow is my sister's birthday so she had them all over to go swimming and hang out and stuff and its really hard for me to watch the group all playing and laughing together because i keep thinking, theres one missing, theres one all alone in a casket in montgomery.... i kept tearing up and having to go upstairs so i didnt upset anybody
LittleWonder97 (2:24:04 AM): awww
LittleWonder97 (2:24:13 AM): im so sorry grace
LittleWonder97 (2:24:22 AM): that must be so hard...hang in there kiddo...
SPLASH0322 (2:24:38 AM): i know, i know, theres not a lot to say i just felt like saying that to someone for some reason
LittleWonder97 (2:25:17 AM): yah, it's kewl. u can always talk to me...dont u forget that
SPLASH0322 (2:26:16 AM): of course... its just like jordan was such a big part of this group of people, like my sister and jordan were the oldest, and the best, and kind of like the leaders, and its such an obvious gaping hole that he isn't there when i watch them all having fun together
SPLASH0322 (2:26:36 AM): it makes me sick to my stomach... its a lot easier when im so far removed in new york
LittleWonder97 (2:26:42 AM): i know
SPLASH0322 (2:27:23 AM): i dont understand why these things have to happen