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A hardened heart is the worse thing you could have right now. I have so much hope that this is not the case.
I just played Pokemon for 2 and a half hours straight, and about 2 other hours earlier.. maybe even 3! Does that make me a loser? Meh. It is a good stress reliever?
I like having nothing in particular to do but wanting to do so much while being lazy. Like... Today. I did not have much to do after school, so I basically did... nothing and moved onto doing more of nothing, just with a different person. I sat in a park, in the grass, on a blanket, with my friend... playing Pokemon and it was probably one of the most relaxing things I have done (other than sleep) in the past couple of weeks at least.
I do not like juggling my time with two different people. I have to make sacrifices and it is bothersome for all three of us.
I want to be better. I am sick of not being happy with myself by the end of the day. The people I have been mean to, the things I have sad, my actions. I want to be able to reflec on my day and say "It was good." Soon, I hope, I will be at that point. There are a couple of people that could make a huge impact on this and either they do not know about it yet, or they are trying to be ignorant or are unwilling. It is somewhat selfish on the parts of the people who are unwilling. At least be supportive?
I feel like my parents dislike me and are judging my actions. They try and make it so I see less of the people I enjoy being with, for one.
Good enough, too late to bother to edit.
I just played Pokemon for 2 and a half hours straight, and about 2 other hours earlier.. maybe even 3! Does that make me a loser? Meh. It is a good stress reliever?
I like having nothing in particular to do but wanting to do so much while being lazy. Like... Today. I did not have much to do after school, so I basically did... nothing and moved onto doing more of nothing, just with a different person. I sat in a park, in the grass, on a blanket, with my friend... playing Pokemon and it was probably one of the most relaxing things I have done (other than sleep) in the past couple of weeks at least.
I do not like juggling my time with two different people. I have to make sacrifices and it is bothersome for all three of us.
I want to be better. I am sick of not being happy with myself by the end of the day. The people I have been mean to, the things I have sad, my actions. I want to be able to reflec on my day and say "It was good." Soon, I hope, I will be at that point. There are a couple of people that could make a huge impact on this and either they do not know about it yet, or they are trying to be ignorant or are unwilling. It is somewhat selfish on the parts of the people who are unwilling. At least be supportive?
I feel like my parents dislike me and are judging my actions. They try and make it so I see less of the people I enjoy being with, for one.
Good enough, too late to bother to edit.