Lesson Learned
Either trust your words
or
Don't say them at all.
Lesson learned is:
If anything.
AN-Y-THING inside you tells you not to say it
Don't say it.
And if you feel like you've dug yourself a good hole you can't get out of,
order food, watch Sex and The City, and wait it out...
This place is boring and lonely. I miss having people around all the time.
I wish I knew my "new" roomie better. Maybe then I could open my door and have the nerve to talk to her.
But I feel like we're in two different worlds right now. I'm seriously not a shy person what the heck is my problem?
Mine's of dark rooms and computer screens, and hers is of loud conversations about how she just got a love confession from someone she's loved for years. Well damn. Yeah, I'm jealous. Yeah I wish it was me. Only because I identify so closely.
Today while at working I was thinking about an Episode of Sex and the City in which Charlotte (the character most like me of course, or at least so I think...) wonders about soulmates, and if they have to be "the ones you love". Ultimately the conclusion is of course that Carrie, Miranda and Samantha are her soulmates since they're all best friends, and that boys are just "something to have fun with" and not quite so important. In thinking about Charlotte's analogy, I know who my female best friend soulmate types are, but unfortunately, I'm still pining for a boy who is very much out of my reach. For a couple of reasons. He's not someone who I would ever classify as "just someone to have fun with" like Charlotte does. I think that's part of my problem. We became friends, and later on, I fell in love.
Is it possible to fall in love first? Is that even healthy? Good God....
There's someone out there who is perfect for me, and dammit, I will find them.
or
Don't say them at all.
Lesson learned is:
If anything.
AN-Y-THING inside you tells you not to say it
Don't say it.
And if you feel like you've dug yourself a good hole you can't get out of,
order food, watch Sex and The City, and wait it out...
This place is boring and lonely. I miss having people around all the time.
I wish I knew my "new" roomie better. Maybe then I could open my door and have the nerve to talk to her.
But I feel like we're in two different worlds right now. I'm seriously not a shy person what the heck is my problem?
Mine's of dark rooms and computer screens, and hers is of loud conversations about how she just got a love confession from someone she's loved for years. Well damn. Yeah, I'm jealous. Yeah I wish it was me. Only because I identify so closely.
Today while at working I was thinking about an Episode of Sex and the City in which Charlotte (the character most like me of course, or at least so I think...) wonders about soulmates, and if they have to be "the ones you love". Ultimately the conclusion is of course that Carrie, Miranda and Samantha are her soulmates since they're all best friends, and that boys are just "something to have fun with" and not quite so important. In thinking about Charlotte's analogy, I know who my female best friend soulmate types are, but unfortunately, I'm still pining for a boy who is very much out of my reach. For a couple of reasons. He's not someone who I would ever classify as "just someone to have fun with" like Charlotte does. I think that's part of my problem. We became friends, and later on, I fell in love.
Is it possible to fall in love first? Is that even healthy? Good God....
There's someone out there who is perfect for me, and dammit, I will find them.