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friday. thank goodness.
i was so awake this morning, it was weird. popped right out of bed with a smile on my face and got ready and off to work singing songs in the car. it was odd, for me. haaa. my good mood went away, cuz i ended up being really tired. go figure. but when i was still on my top-of-the-world mood, i texted jesse. i havent even attempted to talk to him in over a month. because usually when i tried, he would ignore my texts or respond like a day later with a one word answer. but i said:
"Hi jesse how are you?"
and he wrote back
"Good how about you"
i was surprised to even get that much back from him. we even had a little bit of a conversation. which is miraculous. i asked how he liked south carolina. he said it was ok but...
IS PROBABLY MOVING BACK IN THE SPRING.
i think i nearly had a heart attack. i don't know how i feel about that. in a way, i'm psyched. cuz it's jesse and in spite of everything i love him, even if not in the same way anymore (or maybe i do i don't know). but then on the other hand, if he is around and i can't have him it will make things miserable for me to have to see him all the time and it will make it impossible for me to have any other relationship.
i don't know. it was nice to talk to him again though. i am glad i never ended up saying all those mean things i wanted to.
in the meantime... brandon is coming over.
i've been talking to jeremy a lot. he is such a cool guy. sooo funny. we have this "competition" every day, who ever contacts the other person first loses. yeah we are like 2nd graders. but its funny. when we're both online we wait 10 minutes before someone finally says "fine you win. hi". and here is jeremy (with jesse, on the right)
