if i could ever pass as emo, this is my breaking point
im scared. this whole twin vibe thing i have with sierra, who i am NOT related to, is scaring me. im so freaked out right now. i just want to cry but i wont cry b/c i never cry b/c thats how i was raised.
today. today sucked. i have no freedom whatsoever and it is getting worse. its all b/c of some family issues im not allowed to talk about but lets just say it affects me greatly and i think it is the lamest thing i have ever come across in my life. i know hard times are happening but that doesnt mean they have to take it out on me. do i look like a psychiatrist? or a punching bag? or someone who cares???? ok so i do care, but i dont want to be a part of it. its all in the past. the past. only the good parts of the past should be remembered. the bad...the bad should be erased. the past. im serious they are making my life miserable because of the freakin whoop dee doo past.
ok im going to go balance the checkbooks and pay some bills (overdue ones...not good not good)my dad shouldnt have to do that stuff right now so im going to do it. its not his fault for crying out loud give the man a break. hmm i think i'll do some laundry and make dinner too. if only this was desert season. we wouldnt have to put up with this.
i just read this thing and i feel stupid. its so negative. i hate being negative. im going on a walk. and for once, i dont care if i get caught. i just want out. forget the past.
today. today sucked. i have no freedom whatsoever and it is getting worse. its all b/c of some family issues im not allowed to talk about but lets just say it affects me greatly and i think it is the lamest thing i have ever come across in my life. i know hard times are happening but that doesnt mean they have to take it out on me. do i look like a psychiatrist? or a punching bag? or someone who cares???? ok so i do care, but i dont want to be a part of it. its all in the past. the past. only the good parts of the past should be remembered. the bad...the bad should be erased. the past. im serious they are making my life miserable because of the freakin whoop dee doo past.
ok im going to go balance the checkbooks and pay some bills (overdue ones...not good not good)my dad shouldnt have to do that stuff right now so im going to do it. its not his fault for crying out loud give the man a break. hmm i think i'll do some laundry and make dinner too. if only this was desert season. we wouldnt have to put up with this.
i just read this thing and i feel stupid. its so negative. i hate being negative. im going on a walk. and for once, i dont care if i get caught. i just want out. forget the past.