Jul 13, 2004 09:48
so that's it then. i've finally realized the answer, and the answer is no. but that's what i get for my girly, romantic little fantasies. and i'm sad about that. but it's an okay sad. i think i like being sad. or maybe i'm just so used to it that your "sad" is my "content". i really do cherish when i'm not sad because it happens so rarely. it's not even a SAD..it's kind of a...calm... sullenness. a kind of morose gloom. (you know how i love my synonyms.) but i do adore this mood so. i also feel kind of bitchy. but only bitchy to people who deserve it. so instead of being midly bitchy to stupid people, i lash out on them. stupid... stupid people. i don't really know what else i want to write because anything else i write will just make this whole thing repetitive, which it is already, i think.