i'll take a quiet life. a handshake of carbon monoxide.
my name is emily and i love to cry.
my name is emily and i want to die.
not because life sucks oh-so-very-much
not because "nobody understands me"
not because some one broke my heart
but because life is too sad to be worth living.
there are certain songs that no matter how much i listen to them, they make me cry.
i love them.
blink 182- adam's song (works like a charm)
coldplay- the scientist (usually i need the video, though)
radiohead- no surprises (i love this)
probably more, though. i want to die. want to die i want to die i want to die. i don't want to ever be sad anymore. that is impossible. i want to die.
i love being sad.
if being sad makes me happy then can i really be happy?