"that's mean, i won't stomp on her vagina"
so, the vending machine guy came again today. he gave me his number again. woo hoo. SCORE!! lol. it's so funny, i gave that poem i wrote (the one that started with like 'i see you in the halls...blah blah blah' to the guy it was about, and like, he was all goofy about it. he told me he likes me too and that he thought i just wanted to be friends with him, and im all 'dude, i have wanted to fuck you since the beginning of freshman year.' (i was semi-joking).
other than that, my friend harry ( yay!! i have a friend named harry, finally, been looking for one of those....lol.) tried to make me play hackie (sp?) sack today, great stuff. i suck, and today was the end of my sad career as a hackie sacker. o yeah.
my friend juan (johnny) has been annoying me so effin bad lately. he talks about Tu Pac like non-fuckin-stop, it's so fucking crazy!!! sometimes i wish he would just like, ya know, die or something. what ev's/// im over it, i just wont talk to him anymore.
some stupid girl madison was making fun of me because i kept saying 'i love the vending machine guy' and like she went up to her skank friend and was all 'that girl likes the vending machine guy' and i was all 'yeah, well, you know what skank, if you saw him you would too, only he doesn't like girls who give it out to anything with a fucking cock!'. yeah, that shut up that stupid cunt.
i dont know why but i feel like doing something bad. i haven't done anything in a long time. i haven't cut/drank/smoked girtts or weed/fucked...nothing!! im going fucking crazy yo, crazy!! i want to have sex soooo bad, like, right now this very second. and i dont even care who it's with either. normally i would say, like no to anyone who asks or brings it up, because (under normal circumstances) i have only had sex with one guy (which is still also true) but like right now, id do [almost] anyone. im that fucking horny. anyways...
hmmm. i had to gather up information for horse today because he saw tone's phone number written on my back pack (ash's doing) and like he asked me what his last name was and what-not, so like he figured out that that's the guy (tone) that he has some sort of problem with for some odd reason, and he hates benny, and for some reason he also knows some other people that are radny's friends. i was like 'wtf?!!', he wont tell me until tomorrow though what this crazy fucking connection is...sheesh.
man, i hate deven again!! it's like every time i go out with him, i just start hating his fucking guts, but when we aren't together [b/f/+g/f] i like, want him real bad. i am more crazy than i thought. oh well, it comes with the territory.
you know what else is strange, he and i have grown farther apart and it makes me very sad. and no i am not talking about deven. im talking about the other guy that holds my attention. but i guess if he is happy not talking to me, i will have to try to be happy not talking to him.
oh man, i like ate this ice cream cone for breakfast and like i was on the bus eating it and everyone was giving me funny looks, it was so awesome. i just all 'just because im a cool kid and i have ice cream, pssssh dont hate.' and if they were still staring [because by then it just got annoying] i was like 'boo bitch' and they looked away [and not a moment too soon...]
i really dont like that i am so ugly, it hurts my insides...
o man, we got weighed and what not in phys.ed.[pointless, i already know i am fat, come on now...] and like i weigh 147.5 and 30% of that (45 pounds) is fat. im like 'ahhhhh, im a fucking heffer) and then some creepy mexican guy in my class was like, your stomach turns me on, and the weirdo fucking scarey thing was, he wasn't joking. i was like, ew omg omg, creepy, wtf?!!! i am now officially afraid of p.e., oh well, it's for the best.
i really dont think i have any thing more to say. if i think of something interesting, i will come back and update.
oh yeah, they're getting rid of my puppy stella, im real bummed. but i get to take the rockster for walks agains. maybe 'people' can meet me there again, eh? jslashk...maybe. who knows, im tired right now fools.
xo
<33 aubrey