future and..........
My future has taken a very sudden change into uncertainty. Jessie decided to get an apartment in burlington out of the blue and I've decided that I'm totally gonna live there too. This could be quite difficult to begin with as my parents decided that they arnt gonna have my back at all in this. That kinda pisses me off since they said back in october that as long as I didnt fuck up while at the ranch and stayed here until my probation was over then they would help me out with whatever I choose to do post ranch life. Oh well though, I think this can still work. I've been doing soooo many extra chores to save up every dollar I can. I enrolled at CCV so I can be a full time student otherwise my parents insurance wont cover me anymore and then I wont be able to get my meds which would most certainly end in me trying to self medicate with bad things that will fuck the fuck out of my life. My team is really unhappy about my near future living situation and same goes with my rents. I think this is a good thing though because I feel like I'm finally taking on adult responsibilities and I'm making a conscious effort to better my life and steer away from my old ways. I'm doing everything I can to make jessie happy which is a complete 180 from all of my past relationships. I used to go out of my to make my partners miserable since I was sooo miserable with my addiction bullshit. I have vowed to never be a complete piece of shit again to the people I love. Hooray for moving on.