it's monday...
well today is my monday (this is the start of my work week). been lagging all day, cause i had to wake up early to take kyle to preschool. and i went to bed quite late too. so every now and then i catch myself stealing 30 second naps... hahaha!
i also didn't sleep well. had two dreams of my grandmother. i hardly remember any of them, but i remember in one dream she was walking down the middle of a street. and next to her was a ghostly figure of herself. they were both walking down the street, but while my grandmother was walking a straight line, the ghostly figure was walking away from her. like they were walking in a "v" formation. the whole time i believe that i was in my mom's old pickup truck (which we don't have anymore) watching my grandmother from the passenger seat. my mom was driving. and the whole time, i already knew that my grandmother had passed away. so i knew that both these figures were the ghost of my grandmother.
the second dream was even more odd. i was walking down stairs from my room. and i noticed my grandmother sitting next to a small table. a table that i bought back in az, but my mom was currently using it as a table to hold the buddha statue. but anyways, i walk down stairs and asked my grandmother what she was doing here. again in my dream i knew that she was already dead. and she something to the extent of: i have no were else to go, your mom still hasn't buried my body. then i guess my mom figured that i was talking to my grandmother's spirit and she just went off saying "why is she back? im doing everything i can"
i don't know. i went on with my life after she passed. i didn't really show any emotional break down until my mom told me to say goodbye to her. then when i tried to explain to kyle that he should say goodbye too. was when i first cried over the issue. the second breakdown was during her funeral. deep down inside i believe that i still haven't accepted that she died. my heart doesn't, but my brain knows what's the truth. i never took the time to mourn, nor do i even know how to mourn. deep down inside im confuse and i really miss my grandmother alot. but im glad that she doesn't have to suffer anymore. sigh.
in other news. i managed to get my warlock to level 40 on world of warcraft. this means i get to use my mount (horse or big enough creature where you could ride on, it increases your speed by 60%). what's great is that if you are any other class, other than a warlock, that you'll have to buy your mount for minimum of 80 gold. then you have to pay 20 gold for mount training. but im a warlock and all of that was free!!! yeah. i know. you don't need to say anything.
i still haven't really gotten into kingdom hearts ii yet. i have a couple of hours into the game, but it hasn't grabbed my by force to play it. im glad i can take this game in slow pace. i hate rushing through rpgs, but sometimes you just can't help it. which reminds me, i still have yet to figure out what happens on final fantasy x2. looks like i have to go do some reading. or actually force myself to play the game. =/
so the other morning world of warcraft was down for server maintenance, and i was bored. so i decided to search for some clips of hilary duff. i couldn't believe that i had spent 4 hours going through pictures and video clips of interviews and awards of her. lol. i really like hilary duff.
did i mention that my digital camera broke!!! yeah i need to go an invest in a new one, im glad i have one on my phone at least. well i guess that's it for this week. i have a fishing trip on monday. looking forward to some nice r&r while fishing.
i also didn't sleep well. had two dreams of my grandmother. i hardly remember any of them, but i remember in one dream she was walking down the middle of a street. and next to her was a ghostly figure of herself. they were both walking down the street, but while my grandmother was walking a straight line, the ghostly figure was walking away from her. like they were walking in a "v" formation. the whole time i believe that i was in my mom's old pickup truck (which we don't have anymore) watching my grandmother from the passenger seat. my mom was driving. and the whole time, i already knew that my grandmother had passed away. so i knew that both these figures were the ghost of my grandmother.
the second dream was even more odd. i was walking down stairs from my room. and i noticed my grandmother sitting next to a small table. a table that i bought back in az, but my mom was currently using it as a table to hold the buddha statue. but anyways, i walk down stairs and asked my grandmother what she was doing here. again in my dream i knew that she was already dead. and she something to the extent of: i have no were else to go, your mom still hasn't buried my body. then i guess my mom figured that i was talking to my grandmother's spirit and she just went off saying "why is she back? im doing everything i can"
i don't know. i went on with my life after she passed. i didn't really show any emotional break down until my mom told me to say goodbye to her. then when i tried to explain to kyle that he should say goodbye too. was when i first cried over the issue. the second breakdown was during her funeral. deep down inside i believe that i still haven't accepted that she died. my heart doesn't, but my brain knows what's the truth. i never took the time to mourn, nor do i even know how to mourn. deep down inside im confuse and i really miss my grandmother alot. but im glad that she doesn't have to suffer anymore. sigh.
in other news. i managed to get my warlock to level 40 on world of warcraft. this means i get to use my mount (horse or big enough creature where you could ride on, it increases your speed by 60%). what's great is that if you are any other class, other than a warlock, that you'll have to buy your mount for minimum of 80 gold. then you have to pay 20 gold for mount training. but im a warlock and all of that was free!!! yeah. i know. you don't need to say anything.
i still haven't really gotten into kingdom hearts ii yet. i have a couple of hours into the game, but it hasn't grabbed my by force to play it. im glad i can take this game in slow pace. i hate rushing through rpgs, but sometimes you just can't help it. which reminds me, i still have yet to figure out what happens on final fantasy x2. looks like i have to go do some reading. or actually force myself to play the game. =/
so the other morning world of warcraft was down for server maintenance, and i was bored. so i decided to search for some clips of hilary duff. i couldn't believe that i had spent 4 hours going through pictures and video clips of interviews and awards of her. lol. i really like hilary duff.
did i mention that my digital camera broke!!! yeah i need to go an invest in a new one, im glad i have one on my phone at least. well i guess that's it for this week. i have a fishing trip on monday. looking forward to some nice r&r while fishing.