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Who: Andra & Lauren SASS'N'CLASS FTW
What: BFF Chit Chat because Tori and I are clearly insane and have way too much crack going on
Where: Grrrryffindor Common Room!
When: September 12th, 8pm
Warnings: Girliness? XD
Open to: Lauren!
( Oh Lauren, what have you gotten yourself into this time? )
What: BFF Chit Chat because Tori and I are clearly insane and have way too much crack going on
Where: Grrrryffindor Common Room!
When: September 12th, 8pm
Warnings: Girliness? XD
Open to: Lauren!
( Oh Lauren, what have you gotten yourself into this time? )
Lauren, as mentioned already, was determined to act as immaturely as she could since it was the last year that they would have as an excuse to be immature. But that didn't mean that she'd stop once out of school.
No, Andra's thinking was right -- though they'd somehow have to be mature once they entered the 'real world', Lauren was sure that they would forever hold onto their giggly, silly, over-the-top-crazy antics when in the each others company. She would see to it.
Damn her for showing SIGNS. If anyone was to read her properly, Andra was the safest bet since she knew her FAR too well.
"I'm-- No. No, I'm not exactly contemplating it. Or at least I don't think so. Or... well, I hadn't until he mentioned that it would be a good idea. It's--" She cut herself off again, scratching the back of her head, because honestly! How does one broach this subject? "I don't really know what to say. I'm... well, all I can say is that... if it means spending more time with him? Then yes, I am considering it..."
Lauren cast her eyes down to examine her nails, her cheeks feeling slightly hot. This was really embarrassing for her, apparently. She was almost ashamed to discuss it, because she wasn't sure how Andra would respond! Or what she would think! Hell, she didn't even know what to think herself, so it was an overall awkward situation to be in. She suddenly wished she'd never brought the subject up in the first place.
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Andra watched Lauren, and found herself at a complete and total loss. It wasn't the fact that her words and actions and mannerisms hinted at some sort of crush on the professor -- that was far from shocking to Andra. Lauren was a go-getter, a playful and beautiful girl who loved boys as much as any other girl loved clothes and makeup and ... unicorns when they were four. That was not what had Andra perplexed.
What had her confused and befuddled was the way it was delivered; the way Lauren wasn't meeting her gaze, and how her cheeks were actually pink. This was not something she'd seen before! She was more accustomed to Lauren confessing her weekly desire for this guy or that Auror, so on and so forth -- no shame, no hesitation, and by far, no blushing.
Her mouth opened once, then closed again. What in the world could she say in response to this? The good news was that there wasn't any of that buzzing in the back of her mind, nagging her to point out how very wrong any sort of improper relations between a teacher and a student were. Yet.
"I..." she finally started, finding the simple act of speaking somewhat difficult. "Wow."
There was a pause, followed by, "Are you saying... I mean, I'm not judging, you know me. But I'm just making sure that I'm sort of... deciphering this right. And that you aren't like my crappy runes that make no sense.... Is there crushing going on here?"
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Thankfully it was Andra. The one person she KNEW wouldn't make fun of her for it or hold it against her, though if her friend decided to tease her about it later, she wouldn't hold any grudges. As... come on, how many times had Lauren made fun of Andra blushing? More than she'd care to admit.
She let her blue-green eyes drift upwards, back to the girl sitting next to her as she smiled timidly. This was odd not only for Andra, but Lauren as well! She wasn't USED to acting or behaving or feeling this way. It drove her bonkers. This was why she didn't bother with this bollocks any other time. Simply stating that she had a crush or was interested in a random bloke who caught her eye was much simpler than actually feeling somewhat invested from the get-go.
Why was Frederick having such a big impact on her?!?!?
Sigh. "Yes, you are correct. Or... well, I hate admitting it, Andra, I really do. But there's just something about him, and I can't begin to tell you what. It's just... spending time with him today was... I don't know, it was refreshing and fun and he's so cute>," She now bit her lip again, but more so to stop herself from smiling so brightly. "But it's one of those things, you know? He's forbidden fruit, so it doesn't even matter. Probably just another one of my flavors of the week, I'm sure it'll pass quickly so don't mind me." Or at least she hoped it would pass quickly.
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It obviously couldn't end well. Hell, it couldn't even really start, so that meant it was doomed before it had a chance to begin and end! Definitely not good.
"Honey," Andra said softly, shaking her head as she leaned a little closer; it felt like they shouldn't have even been talking about it in the open. Like it wasn't right -- when they were twelve and 'in love' with a professor, that was okay. They were young and silly and nothing could come of it. But... well, they were older now. Young women. Legal. And that made it some sort of uncomfortable taboo.
"Maybe it's because he's forbidden fruit," she offered, nodding slowly. "One of those things where you want what you can't have?" She hoped that was the case, because if Lauren was digging on Professor York for any reason besides a really cute arse and a charming wit... they were in trouble.
"Though... he's a hottie," she added, unable to stop her grin as she gazed at her friend somewhat slyly. "I totally don't hold it against you!"
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"I know!!" She pouted and moaned, collapsing onto the other girl as she leaned against her, "I know, and you're probably one hundred percent right. I don't know why I'm doing this to myself. It's horrible. And it's only been... well, today wasn't the first time we've interacted more than just in class, but it's utterly foolish of me!"
Why had he made such an impact on her? Seriously! It had been that morning! She'd seen the guy every week(minus the holidays, obviously) for the last six years, going on seven... and it was only now that she was feeling this way? Of course she had found him all too charming and attractive before, but with the one-on-one time they'd been having, it was difficult for her to dismiss how appealing he was.
"I am I so... god, Andra, I'm a horrible person! I'm probably only interested in him because he's off limits! That's horrible!" She sat up straighter now, brushing the hair out of her face as she drew her conclusions, "Why can't I be a normal girl? Why can't I just like normal boys my own age? Why do I find something that I can't have so damn interesting?!?
Please insert a flail here, as Lauren was becoming far too frustrated with herself. For the first time, she almost wished she was someone else.
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Hey, she'd felt that way before. There wasn't anything wrong with it, she supposed one just had to know when to give up it. After all, a girl can dream all day long, but if the other person isn't--
"Hey," she interrupted her thoughts, looking to Lauren a bit more seriously. "He doesn't... I mean, he hasn't said anything to you to make you feel like this has he?" She was slightly torn -- part of her would have been thrilled for her friend if she thought a respectable professor was interested in her, and part of her would have wanted to kick the creep in the wizarding family jewels.
She frowned while thinking of this, then shook it off and put a hand on her shoulder. "And Lauren. You're perfectly normal. I mean, come on! Look at your record, you've liked plenty of boys our age. Just not... hardcore. This isn't... I mean, this isn't hardcore. Right? Like you said, it's probably just going to pass!"
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And then the best friend brought up the other half...
"That's just it!!" She flailed again, her hands flying through the air as she turned herself fully around to face the other girl, her voice coming down a few notches as she finally realized where exactly they were. The last thing she needed was for others to over hear this conversation. "I don't know what he's thinking! He's... he's very confusing, Andra. Very, very confusing. He's got the whole shy thing going, right? And then... out of no where he's all flirty and charming and funny and amazing! But then, like... I'll say something in reply to a flirty comment? Then he'll shut down. It drives me crazy!"
This was good. This ranting she was doing. It was nice to have an outlet to all the thoughts that had been whirling in her mind that day.
Quickly she added, "But he hasn't actually said anything, so I have no idea. Maybe that's why I'm so stuck on him all of a sudden, too, because I'm not sure what his game is."
Another huge sigh. It seemed she would likely be doing a lot of that, "But yes, it's nothing huge... I don't think. I mean, I can't let it be huge, so it's not going to be. I don't do huge. So it stops. Here and now? It's gonna end. After this conversation I'm not going to think about it. Yep." Sad how she thought she could actually accomplish this.
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What Lauren said made Andra bite her own lip lightly, frowning as she brought a hand up to rest against her cheek. This was by no means Andra's area of expertise -- flirting and socializing with the menfolk, that was all Lauren. But the way people acted in general, she could deal with that. She could figure something out and be helpful to her friend.
She didn't want to say it aloud and encourage more of this confusion, but what Lauren told her sounded an awful lot like he was distancing himself when things got too close. And the only reasons for someone to do something like that were either because they didn't want the other person to take them seriously, or they were serious but couldn't allow anything to come of it...
I.E., Professor-Student thing.
"Well," Andra replied, nodding once in a confident manner, "we at least know what it's not. He isn't just being charming and funny and flirty with you because he enjoys playing with you. If that were the case, why would he just shut down all of a sudden? I'd say that if he puts a stop to it after one time, then he's trying to send you the message that he's only being friendly... But if he keeps up the game..."
Bugger, this was confusing. And she wasn't even the one in this mess!! "Well, YES. That sounds like a grand idea, just... stop thinking about it."
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It was silly that she hadn't thought of it herself, as Lauren was quite good at figuring people out. Watching their quirks and habits. She generally didn't have to be told something because her instinctive people reading skills were good enough that she could guess. And more often than not, she was right on the money.
But with Professor York, it all got muddled up! Her confusion in the matter -- both in regards to him and his feelings, as well as her own -- messed with her mind. Those instincts weren't quite as helpful as they might have been if she were the one outside looking in, as Andra was now.
"You're right. You're always right." She nodded once, now taking to biting her nails. Or at least chewing on them lightly, as it helped to be doing something with her hands, "He's not the type to play games. That I'm sure of."
The rest of what Andra said was right, as well, though Lauren wasn't as willing to agree with it. Was it selfish of her to want to wish that he wanted to be more than friends? Ew. It almost made her sick to think of that, but there it was.
"Thanks, friend..." She finally agreed, taking the girl's hand and squeezing it lightly, "What would I do without you? It will definitely be easier to get it out of my mind now that I've talked to you. I'm sorry to put you through my freak out!"
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Andra shook her head while patting Lauren's hand gently. "No thanks necessary," she replied, firmly setting her jaw in a stubborn fashion. "That's what friends are for, right? Sneaking out to eat food at two a.m., distracting from homework, witnessing freak outs... it's all part of the code or something."
She smiled warmly, then wriggled her toes down into the space between their two cushions. "But..."
Well, Lauren had said she wouldn't think about it anymore. And Andra had encouraged that course of action... But there were a couple of things she just had to say or else she'd positively explode.
"Okay so, say he wasn't playing games and he was just trying to keep himself at a distance, right? What would you do? I mean, it's not right -- I'm definitely not condoning anything that could get you or him into big trouble, but... just... let's pretend we're twelve again and can fantasize about whatever we want without consequences, okay? What if?"
She had to know; it would drive her crazy if she left this conversation still wondering what exactly her friend felt and/or wanted from their professor. She held up her hands in a surrender, then gave Lauren her trademark crooked smile. "I promise I'll drop it after you answer."
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OKAY!! SHE COULD TOTALLY DO THAT!
As she would possibly take any excuse to fantasize about her and the Professor before she had to push it into the far corners of her mind. Yes, this might even help her. To just get it all out there. That, or it could make it worse... only time would tell!
"Heee!" She squeed, pulling her legs up and crossing them underneath her as she perhaps got a little too giddy, "Oh man. Where do I even start?!" Seriously. Sometimes? The two were way too girly. "Obviously we've have that scandalous, secret love affair." She used her arms to emphasis as she flourished them through the air. "Okay, okay. I'm joking. Kind of."
Now she took some time to think, as she hadn't dared to imagine the possibilities before this. "Honestly, I'm not sure Andra. It would be weird, right? But... as bad as it is to say, if he didn't distance himself, I'd have a hard time stopping myself from kissing him..."
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Besides, what better way to keep one's mind from being all emo and thinking too much in a serious way than to just let it out in a silly fantasy-spilling session? Right!
"That should not sound as hot as it does," she replied, grinning wide at the flourished 'secret love affair' part. "I mean, right? It should sound gross and it should make me wag my finger at you but all I can do is grin like an idiot." She shook her head with a short laugh, then suppressed her silliness for a moment to listen more.
"Weird, yeah," she agreed, nodding. "I mean, it's not like you could go on a date. Or just walk around holding hands and being cute." That was definitely a mark on the negative side, right? She would have thought so. But maybe Lauren thought of him as worth more than that.
However, thought processes failed when she confessed that bit about her wanting to kiss him. After -- what was it? One hour or so? She wanted to kiss him that badly?? Oh Merlin help her, it was worse than Andra had thought!
Instead of chastising, instead of nagging and dropping in some sort of motherly warning, Andra suppressed her stick-in-the-mud tendencies and gave her friend a dreamy smile. "I'd bet his stubble tickles."
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She giggled insanely, possibly throwing in a snort or two, when Andra said how hot the secret affair would be. First of all, she was laughing because it WOULD be hot, and she was agreeing. Second of all -- had Andra just said something was hot?? THAT was kind of priceless and a golden token that she would be taking away with her from this conversation.
"It's one of those things that's only in a novel or a movie," Lauren agreed, wondering how they couldn't think it was gross and wrong on so many levels. It was that forbidden hotness that drew you in.
But what was gross? Was imagining herself walking around holding the professor's hand and being cute. That was WEIRD and perhaps put the whole situation into more perspective. For some reason it was easier for her to imagine herself being thrown against his desk as they kissed, than walking on the grounds holding his hand and being mushy. Wow. Was her mind twisted or what!?
"Probably does," She shrugged about the stubble, "I've only ever kissed one other guy with stubble. It was different but..." Another shrug, as now was probably the time when they should stop dwelling on the matter, "It doesn't matter, right? We've come to the conclusion that my liking him is certainly out of bounds and that I need to push it away. So push it, I shall! Though... I don't know how I'm going to act around him or how I'm going to continue to help him with organizing!"
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Once she'd come down from the momentary laugh-high and wiped at her cheeks, she let out a sigh and shook her head. "I don't know, I think you're right. It's probably one of those things that are better left as fantasy, you know? Like, if it ever came true, it would probably be disappointing?"
How come she'd heard that piece of advice before, but had never known anyone personally to have some sort of fantasy come true and it not meet their expectations? This was so wrong. It was probably lame advice that people just gave in general to make others feel better about not taking action about something. Ugh.
It was definitely a good thing that Lauren didn't voice that bit about being thrown against Professor York's desk. While Andra wasn't above calling something hot once in a while, talk like that would have surely sent her face into a reddening like no other! Steamy talk, even if it didn't involve her or her own crushes, was a little too intense!
It was Andra's turn to flail, and she did so with such gusto that she bounced up and down on the couch a little. "Wait, WHAT?" she asked, leaning forward with wide eyes. "You're continuing to-- what is this?!?! You have like, preplanned quality time with him or something?? Oh my God, you didn't tell me that!"
Andra refused to say it aloud, but boy did she ever think it: He totally digs her.
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Lauren nodded, because what else was she supposed to do? Going along with whatever Andra told her at this point was probably the wisest thing for her. Andra was a smart girl, even if she wasn't as experienced in matters having to do with the opposite sex. Above anything else, Lauren trusted her friends judgment.
So if she said that it would probably be better as a fantasy? She'd believe her and simply find a way to move on with her life, rather than day dreaming about said fantasy until it drove her mad.
Now it was Lauren's turn to jump back as her friend flailed and bounced and god knows what else! She laughed, completely shocked by the reaction she got from a simple comment that she hadn't even been thinking too much about in the first place! She'd almost been talking to herself at that point, so she was completely caught off guard with the other one's response.
"I-- it-- It's not quality time," She corrected, still laughing at her friend, "I'm just helping him organize the class room. The papers and files he has. So that he can concentrate on actually teaching, or something. I don't know," She waved her hand in the air to dismiss it, "It's not a big deal. Just work."
Thank the gods Andra had the sense not to tell Lauren what she was thinking. The last thing she needed to have in her mind right now was knowing that her friend thought the Professor was digging on her!!
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"Wrong!!" Andra replied, expression completely deadpanned as she held up a hand with all five fingers extended as she counted down a whole list of reasons for their filing-flirting sessions to not be 'just work.'
"Who needs help filing?" she asked, making point number one. "Furthermore, if one does really need the help, there are about a hundred people to ask. Why you? Why not some annoying guy in his own house -- brute strength, closer to the area of work, and no risk for people to assume there's something improper happening."
She actually counted that whole point as three, but whatever. Down to two fingers.
"Why, if he's distancing himself due to the fact that he doesn't feel that way about you, would he continue to put himself in your presence?? And lastly..."
Bugger. She didn't have the last one, and sitting there thinking about it made her look like a complete doofus. "Lastly, you're gorgeous!" she cried, jabbing her thumb up in the air to emphasize that she'd finally made five very valid points. "So... there! And I'm not even sure I should be encouraging this, especially after telling you to forget it, but... Merlin, seriously, that is totally quality time!"
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