random coconuts
You know, you can pretend to be anything you want. You may even truly fool some people into thinking that's really you. They'll love you, they'll follow you around... but in the long run, you will crush them. You will also make yourself miserable because you are living a lie, pretending to be something you're not. Wouldn't it be better to just be yourself, ickiness and all? Think about it... if you are not being yourself and someone falls in love with you, either friend or significant other, and they see the real you... they'll leave. You'll be crushed because they are crushed. Now let's say that you are being yourself and people don't really like you.. but when you do find someone who likes you, it is genuine. And you don't have to be afraid of falling, because you are who you are. They won't be surprised one day by who you are, because they will know from the beginning. Why live in that fear all the time? Afraid to show your real self... afraid you'll slip up, mess up, get disowned, never love again... why would anyone WANT that? I wanted it once... but this was the person who also WANTED to wrap her car around a tree in the shape of a knot... now c'mon obviously I was not thinking clearly. I wanted people to see me as someone else, to not know who I was, where I came from, what really goes on in my life. I made up lies... LIES GALORE.... horrible lies that could get someone sent to prison... WHY? Because I wanted someone to feel sorry for me, take me in, take care of me, wrap me in their arms and tell me it was okay. I felt that the things that happened to me weren't bad enough... that no one would listen or even care. So I had to make up something, a little bit of truth in them, but add on to them. But you know what I found out? People got tired, they saw the truth, they saw the lies... some left... some stayed. I realized that I did not have to lie about things... I didn't even have to tell someone the things that I went through for them to love me... for them to hold me, treat me as one of their own. I didnt' have to... they did it anyway. True love... true and complete love. Someone shouldn't have to do something, go through something, act a certain way for you to love them... you should love from the beginning and stick it out to the end. Because TRUE love NEVER gives up... sticks it out to the end. A person may be influenced by what they go through in their life, but it does not make them who they are. Ugh.. this makes me want to go into labels.. but I won't. I just think they are EVIL. lol... but I'll shut up now, I have no idea where this came from... maybe I'm just tired and need a nap.
Love always,
Linz
Love always,
Linz