Public Apology
First off, I want to apologize to the church and to my spiritual leaders. My attitude and my lack of self control have the possibility of making the church look bad. That was not my intention, and although you cannot take back words... at least I can delete them online. So.. I'm sorry.
More importantly, I want to apologize to Camie. Not because I have to, no... but because I want to. Look, Camie, if you read this... I was totally out of line. I had no right to say what I said. I do love you and I do care about you... a lot. I guess that's why I was so frustrated and freaked out on you. My actions were not right, and definately not christianly.. but even moreso... not friend-like. You are my friend, even though I pretty much said otherwise. First of all, I should have just said what I said to you personally instead of posting it on here and myspace. Even then, I shouldn't have said it. I'm really sorry that I did, and I really didn't mean it. I was only mad and I tend not to check what I say when I'm mad. Still, that does not justify it. I was wrong, I was out of line. I love you, Camie. YOu are like a sister to me... always have been. Even when I get on your nerves you have been there for me. And me chickening out like this and running away from the problem does not help. I feel responsible for how you feel about the church, and I'm sorry if it is my fault. I hope you really see that I never meant for anything to cause so much controversy and hurt. I was saying what I felt, bad as it was, and I'm sorry. We all go through crap... and you never beat me down when I went through mine, so I shouldn't have done it when you are hurting now. You have a right to be mad at me... everyone does. I think I might have just ruined one of the best relationships I have. I dont' want to lose you as a friend, especially over a sudden burst of anger and frustration. I was wrong, I was so totally wrong. And yes I'm getting redundant... but I want you to understand how sorry I am. I am still here for you.. I always will be. Nothing will change that. If you need me I'm here... and I hop eyou can find in your heart to forgive me. Please just talk to me again, even if it is to just cuss me out. I want to know how you feel... the bad and the good. Becuase I love you... and I'm sorry for what I said and my ungodly reactions to my own hurt. I'm sorry... please forgive me.
love lindsay
More importantly, I want to apologize to Camie. Not because I have to, no... but because I want to. Look, Camie, if you read this... I was totally out of line. I had no right to say what I said. I do love you and I do care about you... a lot. I guess that's why I was so frustrated and freaked out on you. My actions were not right, and definately not christianly.. but even moreso... not friend-like. You are my friend, even though I pretty much said otherwise. First of all, I should have just said what I said to you personally instead of posting it on here and myspace. Even then, I shouldn't have said it. I'm really sorry that I did, and I really didn't mean it. I was only mad and I tend not to check what I say when I'm mad. Still, that does not justify it. I was wrong, I was out of line. I love you, Camie. YOu are like a sister to me... always have been. Even when I get on your nerves you have been there for me. And me chickening out like this and running away from the problem does not help. I feel responsible for how you feel about the church, and I'm sorry if it is my fault. I hope you really see that I never meant for anything to cause so much controversy and hurt. I was saying what I felt, bad as it was, and I'm sorry. We all go through crap... and you never beat me down when I went through mine, so I shouldn't have done it when you are hurting now. You have a right to be mad at me... everyone does. I think I might have just ruined one of the best relationships I have. I dont' want to lose you as a friend, especially over a sudden burst of anger and frustration. I was wrong, I was so totally wrong. And yes I'm getting redundant... but I want you to understand how sorry I am. I am still here for you.. I always will be. Nothing will change that. If you need me I'm here... and I hop eyou can find in your heart to forgive me. Please just talk to me again, even if it is to just cuss me out. I want to know how you feel... the bad and the good. Becuase I love you... and I'm sorry for what I said and my ungodly reactions to my own hurt. I'm sorry... please forgive me.
love lindsay