Stop
You know... I'm pretty lenient. I'm actually pretty patient. I'm loving to my friends, although sometimes a little mean... but loving nonetheless... and I tolarate a bunch of stuff... which I shouldn't but I do. But I have read these live journals, I have heard people talk, at church and at school... I've seen people fall because of something in their live. Hell, I've been there... I've done that... I've got the freakin scars to prove it... but you know... I'm tired of this. I'm tired of everyone's petty shit.. and that's what it is... shit. Whining about one thing or another. Complaining about someone else, and getting mad over something ridiculous. It's retarded and effing stupid. You are offended by a church... get over it. You are sad about something someone said... get over it. You are pissed because someone likes someone you like... get over it. You can't stand a friend because they are obsessive and annoying... get over it. You are pissed because you think you have failed and you haven't done enough... get over it. You are pissed because you see other people falling and because of what other people say... get over it. And you may even be pissed because you are as pretty as you think you should be, or that you aren't someone else... get the hell over it! It's not going to last.. it will only last as long as you make a big deal about it. GET OVER IT. STOP bickering, STOP complaining, STOP backbiting, STOP gossiping, STOP being pissed over stupid things, STOP talking trash about the people you love, just STOP. Just fucking stop... I'm over it... Yeah, you're life may seem like it sucks, but it doesn't. It could be so much worse. You are all blessed... WHY ARE YOU SO BLIND TO THAT?! I understand that sometimes you lose hope and faith and joy and love.. I do understand that... but you know what... I've lost other things. I lost my mother, both my grandfathers, my grandmother, two of my aunts, my cousin... and a month ago I lost my uncle.. and just a week ago I lost my aunt and my cousin.. I bet you didnt' know that? No.. because I don't complain about it and try to make people feel sorry for me. And you know what I may even lose my brother. But I'm not mad at the church, I'm not even mad at God... I do ask WHY sometimes... but that's healthy. YOu know, I've distanced myself... I've really tried hard... because it pisses me off what you all complain about... what you all think about certain things. If anyone deserves to be pissed off, it's me. Things that I hold dear to my heart have been ripped away, and even now, it's being sliced and torn in two. I do not have a heart of stone... it's flesh and it bleeds. It bleeds and doesn't stop. I'm not mad at any of you, I'm just tired of hearing this.. tired of watching you ruin your lives because of stupid crap. My heart bleeds for you all also.
The bible says to trust on the lord god and you will be saved... ok... I think peopel misunderstand that.. yes, you will be saved.. but from HELL... not from heartache.. not from offense, not from bitterness, not from disease and a bunch of earthly crap. He cannot and will not save you from something if you won't take his hand. You'll experience these things... you'll live through them... and you'll make it out... and that's fine... but I know that I don't want to experience hell.. because you CANNOT make it out. That is the true rescue... when God saves you from external suffering.. just get over it now.. deal with it and move on.. it won't last.. one day, if you believe and have faith, you will not ever have to suffer again. THAT's true rescue too. He may save you from a car accident or a dangerous relationship... but you will forget it and take it for granted, because you are all so blind. I know he's saved me so many times from death... death at my own hands. He has let me live because I have a purpose. I struggle with things... but I try not to let them control my life anymore because I know there is something greater and bigger out there than my problems... just look at it that way. Magnify God and it will minimize your problems... STOP compressing him... STOP standing in his way. I need to do this also.. but at least I'm trying. I'm trying to make myself pliable and right with God... it's painful.. Satan throws things in my face and in my path... but you deal with it.. move on. It may even take a while to deal with it... but do it. Jesus did it... why can't we? That's just it... we CAN do it.. so do it. I've had loss, I've felt down, I've been in the dark, I've been alone... but you know what... that doesn't control me anymore... and it will be the same for you if you only pursue it... AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I need to go to sleep.. and Chris, I know I'm still "grounded" but I had to let everyone know how I felt about some things. You can't keep it pent up inside forever.
Love,
LINZ
The bible says to trust on the lord god and you will be saved... ok... I think peopel misunderstand that.. yes, you will be saved.. but from HELL... not from heartache.. not from offense, not from bitterness, not from disease and a bunch of earthly crap. He cannot and will not save you from something if you won't take his hand. You'll experience these things... you'll live through them... and you'll make it out... and that's fine... but I know that I don't want to experience hell.. because you CANNOT make it out. That is the true rescue... when God saves you from external suffering.. just get over it now.. deal with it and move on.. it won't last.. one day, if you believe and have faith, you will not ever have to suffer again. THAT's true rescue too. He may save you from a car accident or a dangerous relationship... but you will forget it and take it for granted, because you are all so blind. I know he's saved me so many times from death... death at my own hands. He has let me live because I have a purpose. I struggle with things... but I try not to let them control my life anymore because I know there is something greater and bigger out there than my problems... just look at it that way. Magnify God and it will minimize your problems... STOP compressing him... STOP standing in his way. I need to do this also.. but at least I'm trying. I'm trying to make myself pliable and right with God... it's painful.. Satan throws things in my face and in my path... but you deal with it.. move on. It may even take a while to deal with it... but do it. Jesus did it... why can't we? That's just it... we CAN do it.. so do it. I've had loss, I've felt down, I've been in the dark, I've been alone... but you know what... that doesn't control me anymore... and it will be the same for you if you only pursue it... AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I need to go to sleep.. and Chris, I know I'm still "grounded" but I had to let everyone know how I felt about some things. You can't keep it pent up inside forever.
Love,
LINZ