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[gozita2003]

I got home today and was talking to my mom when I realized something. I don't seem to talk about Taisa, Scheska, or Winry anymore. Or not near as much. And I wondered, what would they do if I disappeared? For a few days, what would they do? How would they react? Makes me wonder if it'd bring us closer together if they realized how easily everything

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[winryrockbell77]

It wasn't a stupid rant. And you have all rights to say things liek that. Coz You're not the only one who feels like that. I mean. I'm not saying I'm the one keeping us together. I don't think you're the one thats going to tear us apart. I mean. I don't think any of us as individuals will tear our friendship apart, but I do think that something that will happen will break the tie. If I could draw a picture of a bow tie to represent our friendship, I would draw it with short bows and long ends. and its not just our friendship thats suffering here.

All my friendships are suffering. I don't have ellyn over anymore. I can't connect with katie anymore. Alice and I don't contact each other anymore. and this friendship hasn't been going well either.

I've gotten really distant from everyone. Like. Everyone. My family, my friends, my own life. The only thing that feels normal in my life are my dreams and my book realms. Its the only place I can go to escape my troubles, so I try to do that alot, which keeps me from the compy.

Once i thought "The only people I need are Ben and Katie. And they aren't on much for importance, so i can spare the compy." And I didn't get on that day.

And I've lied to you guys too many times to count. i don't even remember the things I've lied about. They were small things that didn't grow too fast, but they built up. and I can't get rid of them.

You're not the only one, Ed. You're definitely not the only one.