Day three...Ouch its still hurts..
Day three, and the urges are still shredding my mind...Hell I must be in it now because its nothing but one big shitstorm. Hell its all I can do right now with my paycheck not to go buy a carton and smoke all of them right then and there...Ewwwww. I thought it was ruff before fighting myself now its all out globalthermonuclear warfare. And i am on the reciving side at the moment. Its not that I am weak on this. Oh no. Its I have gotten through the physical withdrws of my habit and now I have to get through the 23 years of hardwireing that I have done to myself. Well there is a good note on all of this. Seeing as I cannot smoke, and that I hate eatting too much my fiance is loving the time I spend with her..(Bedroom wise) She wants me to stay like this. I am thinking of it as a bonus to quiting. But I am on a long road with this. The longest I have ever gone without a fag is 6 months. Adn that was a pain in the arse to get to taht point. Now let us see how far I can go this time. Be well all.