Release

[gozarkthemad]

Hello all. I have found myself lacking of late and completely out of my happy ass mind. I had to track down catch and hog tie the little runt of a heart of mine and throw him back in his cage. Little bugger has no restraint. That and falling down the way I did does not help much *rubs his head*. But things have been better. Talking to all of you and listening to what y'all had to say helped out allot. And I am feeling much better now...I think.:) But I have come to a bend in the road. Both emotionally and spiritually...And NO I have not found god. Grrrrrrrr. I have found a piece of myself that I had thought lost long ago. Hearing myself some days helps me to see either how much I have learned or just how stupid I sound. Lol. And yes I know thats most of the time...Hey Vodka was involved get off me.:P But I think I have learned somethings in life. Listening to my friends has helped a great deal with that. Hearing my own words shot back at me about the past, future and present even though that may not have been what they were after. It still hit home. The final nail in the coffin of my self doubt and loathing...at least for the time being. Was hearing my own words repeated by another as well. Pain is growth, and you will either learn from it or drown in it. (My own take on it.) That is what I have told people most my life and had forgotten. I forgot. Ever happen to you? It happened to me.:)

Well with that being spoken. I will make my apologies now. For those I have harmed or upset. Please except my humble apologies. I was out of my mind and needed time to put it back together again. I have been lost for a bit. I am better now. So thank you all that have been my friends through all of my drama and BS. Thank you for being my friends, and the occasional kick in the arse is a good thing just NO POINTED BOOTS NEXT TIME OK! :P Be well all and William is back. And I am feeling much better now. Tehehehehehehe.....Ah hem....*Waves*