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I am a failure.... I can not seem to get into the mind set of writing a paper. This is just so stupid. I don't know what I use to do to be able to write...I use to be AWESOME at writing papers. Actually now that I think about it I wasn't awesome... I just thought I was.... I am not smart like that. I can't write,and I can't do book work... It's just something my brain can't figure out. which I am totally cool with, but it is still annoying. I want so bad to beable to write a book. I want so bad to be able to do something that will change someone's life. I want them to seeand thing my world would not be the same if I (Rei) didn't exist. God I sound like a pathetic brat... I am not tho! I know those of you who are reading this... if anyone anymore know that I am not. I love attention...obviously. BUT I do not need to say things like this to get it.... I just really need to just let this out. Without someone reading it and saying "Oh Reilly you are depressed" or "Reilly I love you, you are awesome" I don't need nor do I want to here that. I know I am great no need to tell me. I also DO NOT LIKE hearing someone tell ME I am depressed. I am the total opposite. Sure I am a big baby and I get really emotional and stupid shit, but in no way shape or form and I depressed... so fuck off. I feel sick. Not ill... just sick. Sick to my stomach that.. I am really not sure to tell you the truth. Damn... I hate this feeling.. I need to go out...
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